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I'm so amped! Scott Pilgrim was amazing!! I saw it thursday/friday night at the midnight release and all day today it was on my mind. It makes me want to write again though..to get to that level. The art style for the comic wasn't amazing and yet it's originality and storyline made it as popular as it is, and now with the movie (because I for one haven't read the comic yet) will just triple that audience easily. I'm following the guy on twitter, and he is very happy to see his work do so well. I wanna get to that point...I wanna see my ideas become books and maybe my books become movies.
I related to the movie a lot for the sheer fact that, Scott and Ramona's relationship seemed kinda like me and Brittany when we actually were still talking. Brittany is kinda like Ramona unsure of what she wants, Scott's a little more open than I am, but he has his silly awkward moments that I tend to have. *shrugg*
but enough of that, the reality of life now is that most things for me aren't going very uphill it's a very plateau-y and there's no signs of change. I need a new job, but to find one now and that pays well is a task, and I'm kinda afraid to do anything that's on the line of "professional" because everything I've ever done has been an "attempt" or for fun. Even now, my job is just a thing I do to get paid. I don't take it any more serious than I have to, and yet some people there act like it's there life's calling, not to mention the customers are more stupid than ever.
I wanna go back to college, a four year school...maybe build up my art skills and make some connections, but I feel like even that will be a waste of money. I can learn to draw better from here...at home, which I'm never at...because of work. Up until now life was easy. You get up, go to school...come home do hw...normal stuff, or get up, and go to work. Where do I go from here....I guess I should save money...maybe one day I can at least do something interesting with it.
Being shy also is holding me back, after seeing that movie..I'm just remembering back in 11th/ beginning of 12th grade where I wanted to act. I get pre-performance jitters but once I'm actually on stage I do pretty well. I don't know.... I'm rambling on because LIFE ITSELF IS BORING, I could party everyday...and hang out and do whatever the fuck I want forever...and I think it'd still be boring, there's a piece of me out there that I need to find to make everyday worth living.
I related to the movie a lot for the sheer fact that, Scott and Ramona's relationship seemed kinda like me and Brittany when we actually were still talking. Brittany is kinda like Ramona unsure of what she wants, Scott's a little more open than I am, but he has his silly awkward moments that I tend to have. *shrugg*
but enough of that, the reality of life now is that most things for me aren't going very uphill it's a very plateau-y and there's no signs of change. I need a new job, but to find one now and that pays well is a task, and I'm kinda afraid to do anything that's on the line of "professional" because everything I've ever done has been an "attempt" or for fun. Even now, my job is just a thing I do to get paid. I don't take it any more serious than I have to, and yet some people there act like it's there life's calling, not to mention the customers are more stupid than ever.
I wanna go back to college, a four year school...maybe build up my art skills and make some connections, but I feel like even that will be a waste of money. I can learn to draw better from here...at home, which I'm never at...because of work. Up until now life was easy. You get up, go to school...come home do hw...normal stuff, or get up, and go to work. Where do I go from here....I guess I should save money...maybe one day I can at least do something interesting with it.
Being shy also is holding me back, after seeing that movie..I'm just remembering back in 11th/ beginning of 12th grade where I wanted to act. I get pre-performance jitters but once I'm actually on stage I do pretty well. I don't know.... I'm rambling on because LIFE ITSELF IS BORING, I could party everyday...and hang out and do whatever the fuck I want forever...and I think it'd still be boring, there's a piece of me out there that I need to find to make everyday worth living.