Rainy Sunday Afternoon
A client of the firm passed away last weekend and we actually last saw him in our office only a few days before. His death came as somewhat of a shock for most of us and it really reminded me of how fragile & unpredictable life is.
Do you have those days when your mind wanders and you begin to reflect and wonder “What am I doing with my life?” I’m having one of those days, and not having a book with me on a long train ride, triggers an uncontrollable need to make my hands busy, thus the drafting of this entry on my blackberry.
My life right now kinda feels like I have a medical crisis every 2 years or so, I work long hours, get paid peanuts, never had a boyfriend AND I still live at home.
Sounds depressing already.
Sometimes the only thing that gets me through the day is either my family, the few close friends I have, the annual overseas trips I try to take and of course, Arashi (嵐).
How can you not love these dorks? (^_−)−☆
Have I made something of myself so far? I dare say I have not. I have friends telling me how strong I am with all the trials & tribulations I have faced and overcame, but does that really mean anything? Because at the end of the day, when my body takes its last breath and my heart stops pumping, have I done enough to leave behind any form of inspiration or legacy that will leave a fond memory even in one person?
You must think me mad for even thinking such a thing. If you're a person who knows that you will never have a child of your own or even the simplest fact of not know what it feels like to be in love or being in love (and I'm not referring to the family/friend platonic type of love) but the deepest kind of love between 2 people, that person like myself would mostly have the same train of thought. What is the “in" word the cyberworld teens call it these days? Oh yea, #foreveralone. Hahahaha!
Sure I may be “foreveralone” but let me clarify something, I am not lonely. Ok maybe on cold rainy nights or at the end of a bad day when I want to snuggle up to someone for warmth & comfort, but honestly I’m comfortable being on my own and being independent. I don’t mind sitting alone in a crowded food court for lunch neither do I mind travelling overseas on my own when none of my friends are free to do so. If I wasn’t I wouldn’t have made that solo trip to Japan for my 25th birthday. Life is too short to constantly wait on people and as time goes by I’ve learnt to never have any expectations on other people but do the best you can do for yourself.
Right-o on to less serious stuff.
Arashi’s latest studio album ‘Beautiful World’ is out! Dear Mr Postman, when is my pre-ordered Album arriving in my mailbox?
Itchy me however have gotten my hands on a preview of their songs online, and I LOVE IT!
☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
I have the album playing in loops in my iPod. Personally I think Beautiful World is a better album than their previous album, 僕の見ている風景. My favourite songs in their new album (aside from songs that they have already released as singles e.g Love Rainbow, Lotus, To be free, Dear Snow, etc) are まだ見ぬ世界へ, Joy, Nino’s solo まだ見ぬ世界へ and Sho’s solo このままもっと. I am usually a fan of Ohno's solo but this time his solo doesn't appeal much to me. Surprisingly I'm even enjoying Jun's solo on this album.
Now if only Johnnys International office would release tickets to International fans for Arashi’s concerts, life would be complete methinks.
(^_−)−☆
Do you have those days when your mind wanders and you begin to reflect and wonder “What am I doing with my life?” I’m having one of those days, and not having a book with me on a long train ride, triggers an uncontrollable need to make my hands busy, thus the drafting of this entry on my blackberry.
My life right now kinda feels like I have a medical crisis every 2 years or so, I work long hours, get paid peanuts, never had a boyfriend AND I still live at home.
Sounds depressing already.
Sometimes the only thing that gets me through the day is either my family, the few close friends I have, the annual overseas trips I try to take and of course, Arashi (嵐).
How can you not love these dorks? (^_−)−☆
Have I made something of myself so far? I dare say I have not. I have friends telling me how strong I am with all the trials & tribulations I have faced and overcame, but does that really mean anything? Because at the end of the day, when my body takes its last breath and my heart stops pumping, have I done enough to leave behind any form of inspiration or legacy that will leave a fond memory even in one person?
You must think me mad for even thinking such a thing. If you're a person who knows that you will never have a child of your own or even the simplest fact of not know what it feels like to be in love or being in love (and I'm not referring to the family/friend platonic type of love) but the deepest kind of love between 2 people, that person like myself would mostly have the same train of thought. What is the “in" word the cyberworld teens call it these days? Oh yea, #foreveralone. Hahahaha!
Sure I may be “foreveralone” but let me clarify something, I am not lonely. Ok maybe on cold rainy nights or at the end of a bad day when I want to snuggle up to someone for warmth & comfort, but honestly I’m comfortable being on my own and being independent. I don’t mind sitting alone in a crowded food court for lunch neither do I mind travelling overseas on my own when none of my friends are free to do so. If I wasn’t I wouldn’t have made that solo trip to Japan for my 25th birthday. Life is too short to constantly wait on people and as time goes by I’ve learnt to never have any expectations on other people but do the best you can do for yourself.
Right-o on to less serious stuff.
Arashi’s latest studio album ‘Beautiful World’ is out! Dear Mr Postman, when is my pre-ordered Album arriving in my mailbox?
Itchy me however have gotten my hands on a preview of their songs online, and I LOVE IT!
☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
I have the album playing in loops in my iPod. Personally I think Beautiful World is a better album than their previous album, 僕の見ている風景. My favourite songs in their new album (aside from songs that they have already released as singles e.g Love Rainbow, Lotus, To be free, Dear Snow, etc) are まだ見ぬ世界へ, Joy, Nino’s solo まだ見ぬ世界へ and Sho’s solo このままもっと. I am usually a fan of Ohno's solo but this time his solo doesn't appeal much to me. Surprisingly I'm even enjoying Jun's solo on this album.
Now if only Johnnys International office would release tickets to International fans for Arashi’s concerts, life would be complete methinks.
(^_−)−☆