Monday madness
Its about 1.20am and I really should be asleep instead of blogging. Monday had been a very hectic & lest to say a bad start to the week. The day had been full of troublemakers, ungrateful idiots, me running around with errands, fixing messes and add all that with the annoying weather that has gotten really bad lately, i am left exhausted.
It definitely does not help that my back has been hurting for weeks. This morning as I woke up with pain down my back to my toes, I wonder if I will ever wake up without feeling pain. The supposedly 'strong' painkillers that my doctors had prescribed the previous time i saw them is of no effect. The only temporary relief that i've felt these past few weeks was when I decided to visit mum's traditional massage person. That only lasted only one night ho hum.
Hopefully when i see my spine doctor again this coming Friday he could provide me with a temporary/permanent solution to this pain problem i'm having. Me is so no liking how a 10+ year old surgery is sill affecting how my life is like now. So for now i try to cope with brace support, stretching and walking as much and whenever i can. I tell myself that pain is a state of mind and that it should be a positive thing that i'm still feeling pain which is a great indicator that i'm still alive, but sometimes being posiive gets a tad bit tiring. Sometimes I wonder if I did something really bad in my past life to have to go through so much in my present one. Everything I have gone through from losing my dad to having to live in an orphanage during my teenage years to all the major surgeries, complications and whatnots I have gone thru, it has indeed made me a stronger person but sometimes a small part of me wonder if I will ever be pain free? Will i ever be truly happy. I tell myself everyday that I should be happy with what I have, that I am blessed despite everything, that i'm perfectly happy that i am where I am today. But sometimes, sometimes I feel as if my strength needs a break. Need something or someone to lean on to, even if it is just for a second. But I guess that's not the plan life has for me is it. No slacking off. Gambarimasu. I shall not let my negative thoughts bring me down. (^-^)b
Work has been busybusybusy. The new lawyer that came at the end of January has finally decided to switch firms again. That was certainly short-lived. From the moment she stepped into our office she had been a whirlwind up right to her resignation and subsequent formalities that needed to be done for files in her charge.
All i say is good riddance and wish her new firm the best of luck. They definitely need it. :P
Met my 2nd sis and 4th bro at our neighbourhood mall (TM) to get my sis' replacement phone. Some jerk stole her phone while she was at work and the only way she could get a replacement phone was by persuading 4th bro to sign up for a new line. Since we were already at the mall, to reward myself for the hectic few weeks that i've been having, I bought myself a new pair of chuck taylors to add to my shoe collection. I love my chuck taylors. Most comfy shoes ever! :))
My Japanese class has been going well. I'm almost in my 4th week now, my 7th lesson is this Wednesday evening and we're actually done with our hiragana & numbers! i still get confused with some characters (especially when they look darn similar like 'ね', 'れ' & 'わ' which looks somewhat similar except for a curve or two that differs) and still I'm still somewhat slow at reading sentences but i'm sure i'll get to a point where i'll be able to read it faster without second guessing myself if i got the characters right or not lol
Hmmm I swear I had other things in mind that I wanted to blog about but I my short-term memory these days is like an old lady, I can’t seem to recall what I originally wanted to blog about. Ah well i’m sure it’ll come back to me when i finally turn off my laptop heh~
Since my eyes are finally sleepy, I shall leave whatever is for my next entry then.
おやすみなさい
It definitely does not help that my back has been hurting for weeks. This morning as I woke up with pain down my back to my toes, I wonder if I will ever wake up without feeling pain. The supposedly 'strong' painkillers that my doctors had prescribed the previous time i saw them is of no effect. The only temporary relief that i've felt these past few weeks was when I decided to visit mum's traditional massage person. That only lasted only one night ho hum.
Hopefully when i see my spine doctor again this coming Friday he could provide me with a temporary/permanent solution to this pain problem i'm having. Me is so no liking how a 10+ year old surgery is sill affecting how my life is like now. So for now i try to cope with brace support, stretching and walking as much and whenever i can. I tell myself that pain is a state of mind and that it should be a positive thing that i'm still feeling pain which is a great indicator that i'm still alive, but sometimes being posiive gets a tad bit tiring. Sometimes I wonder if I did something really bad in my past life to have to go through so much in my present one. Everything I have gone through from losing my dad to having to live in an orphanage during my teenage years to all the major surgeries, complications and whatnots I have gone thru, it has indeed made me a stronger person but sometimes a small part of me wonder if I will ever be pain free? Will i ever be truly happy. I tell myself everyday that I should be happy with what I have, that I am blessed despite everything, that i'm perfectly happy that i am where I am today. But sometimes, sometimes I feel as if my strength needs a break. Need something or someone to lean on to, even if it is just for a second. But I guess that's not the plan life has for me is it. No slacking off. Gambarimasu. I shall not let my negative thoughts bring me down. (^-^)b
Work has been busybusybusy. The new lawyer that came at the end of January has finally decided to switch firms again. That was certainly short-lived. From the moment she stepped into our office she had been a whirlwind up right to her resignation and subsequent formalities that needed to be done for files in her charge.
All i say is good riddance and wish her new firm the best of luck. They definitely need it. :P
Met my 2nd sis and 4th bro at our neighbourhood mall (TM) to get my sis' replacement phone. Some jerk stole her phone while she was at work and the only way she could get a replacement phone was by persuading 4th bro to sign up for a new line. Since we were already at the mall, to reward myself for the hectic few weeks that i've been having, I bought myself a new pair of chuck taylors to add to my shoe collection. I love my chuck taylors. Most comfy shoes ever! :))
My Japanese class has been going well. I'm almost in my 4th week now, my 7th lesson is this Wednesday evening and we're actually done with our hiragana & numbers! i still get confused with some characters (especially when they look darn similar like 'ね', 'れ' & 'わ' which looks somewhat similar except for a curve or two that differs) and still I'm still somewhat slow at reading sentences but i'm sure i'll get to a point where i'll be able to read it faster without second guessing myself if i got the characters right or not lol
Hmmm I swear I had other things in mind that I wanted to blog about but I my short-term memory these days is like an old lady, I can’t seem to recall what I originally wanted to blog about. Ah well i’m sure it’ll come back to me when i finally turn off my laptop heh~
Since my eyes are finally sleepy, I shall leave whatever is for my next entry then.
おやすみなさい