Ramblings, theories, rants & randomness
I don't know why i still read the occasional romance novel when every time I finish reading them I toss the book aside and roll my eyes. As much as i love the occasional romance angle in the works of fiction, when it gets too mushy usually towards the end I just can't help but be cynical. Although i love the idea of romance and happily ever after, I don't believe in them. What is romance really or love for that matter? Does 'love at first sight', 'soulmates' or 'happily ever after' even exist? I don't believe there is such a thing as happily ever afters. Its just an illusion and a facade to the dim reality that is life. I have seen too many of my friends and friends of friends getting hurt, cry over heartbreaks, disappointments and paranoia.
If falling in love sets yourself up for getting hurt, I don't think I want any of it. I get hurt enough even without being caught in the illusions of love. Life has made me strong in so many ways but I don't think i'm strong enough to endure heart break even if that was even a possibility. Heart infection was no sweat, i survived surgery, being infected twice and all that jazz, but emotional heartbreak? I hate to admit it but it sounds even scarier than heart surgery. Maybe this is why love will never find me and why i've never been in a relationship.
Then there's the rare occasions when i see old couples walking hand in hand together, being affectionate, the eye contact they give each other. That somehow makes me smile and gives me a glimmer of hope that true love do exist. Maybe one day if i meet someone who can do the impossible and keep me interested, overlook my imperfections and change my mind, then maybe i'll find out if such a thing exists.
Well enough of my cynicism. Oh and before i move on to happier things, I just want to rant about something.
I am getting irritated with some china nationals who work in the service industry. Just because i'm NOT CHINESE doesn't mean I am invisible or deserve any less respect. wtf. I queue up like any normal customer would and you serve all the chinese customers behind me first????? So not funny especially on a hot humid day. oh and yes just because this country's majority is Chinese, this is not China and it does not mean ALL of us know how to speak mandarin. If you cannot understand simple english why in the world are you in the service industry??????????????????????
Ok end of rant. Don't get me wrong I am not racist, 90% of my friends are chinese. I only have problems with China immigrants/workers who come to work in Singapore and behave in a rude disrepecting manner, like jumping the queue at the supermarket and not joining the obvious queue behind the cashier. lol okok now really end of rant =P.
Had a job interview today. My first after sending out countless resumes. I have no idea of the outcome since the recuritment agency still has to pass my resume to the actual employer and they will only notify me if i'm shortlisted. As much as I want the job I have to be realistic. There might be more qualified people for the job and oh did i mention I told them why i resigned from my previous job? That might have killed my chances then. Oh well. At least i was being honest.
I could be giving my comments on Singapore Budget 2009 but I'm too lazy for now and my sister wants to use her laptop which i'm currently using lol so before I log off, I was reading my Friends Page and saw lady_northstar's pic spam of Arashi. Just because I don't believe in love does not mean I am any less of a girl who appreciates looking at good looking male specimens lol. So many nice images of the boys and i came upon this photo of Ohno:
I don't think I have a hand fetish, but, I like looking at ohno's hands. They are nice hands too look at. Nice lean tapered fingers. Maybe its only natural for an artist to have such nice hands, working on his art pieces XP I don't think anyone else in Arashi has similar nice looking hands. Well Matsujun's may come close but Ohno will still win hands down. *grinz*
I leave you guys now with my current favourite Arashi's recent peformance of their song Truth. Have a good long weekend!
p.s - Happy Chinese New Year & Gong Xi Fa Cai to all my chinese friends (^-^)v
If falling in love sets yourself up for getting hurt, I don't think I want any of it. I get hurt enough even without being caught in the illusions of love. Life has made me strong in so many ways but I don't think i'm strong enough to endure heart break even if that was even a possibility. Heart infection was no sweat, i survived surgery, being infected twice and all that jazz, but emotional heartbreak? I hate to admit it but it sounds even scarier than heart surgery. Maybe this is why love will never find me and why i've never been in a relationship.
Then there's the rare occasions when i see old couples walking hand in hand together, being affectionate, the eye contact they give each other. That somehow makes me smile and gives me a glimmer of hope that true love do exist. Maybe one day if i meet someone who can do the impossible and keep me interested, overlook my imperfections and change my mind, then maybe i'll find out if such a thing exists.
Well enough of my cynicism. Oh and before i move on to happier things, I just want to rant about something.
I am getting irritated with some china nationals who work in the service industry. Just because i'm NOT CHINESE doesn't mean I am invisible or deserve any less respect. wtf. I queue up like any normal customer would and you serve all the chinese customers behind me first????? So not funny especially on a hot humid day. oh and yes just because this country's majority is Chinese, this is not China and it does not mean ALL of us know how to speak mandarin. If you cannot understand simple english why in the world are you in the service industry??????????????????????
Ok end of rant. Don't get me wrong I am not racist, 90% of my friends are chinese. I only have problems with China immigrants/workers who come to work in Singapore and behave in a rude disrepecting manner, like jumping the queue at the supermarket and not joining the obvious queue behind the cashier. lol okok now really end of rant =P.
Had a job interview today. My first after sending out countless resumes. I have no idea of the outcome since the recuritment agency still has to pass my resume to the actual employer and they will only notify me if i'm shortlisted. As much as I want the job I have to be realistic. There might be more qualified people for the job and oh did i mention I told them why i resigned from my previous job? That might have killed my chances then. Oh well. At least i was being honest.
I could be giving my comments on Singapore Budget 2009 but I'm too lazy for now and my sister wants to use her laptop which i'm currently using lol so before I log off, I was reading my Friends Page and saw lady_northstar's pic spam of Arashi. Just because I don't believe in love does not mean I am any less of a girl who appreciates looking at good looking male specimens lol. So many nice images of the boys and i came upon this photo of Ohno:
I don't think I have a hand fetish, but, I like looking at ohno's hands. They are nice hands too look at. Nice lean tapered fingers. Maybe its only natural for an artist to have such nice hands, working on his art pieces XP I don't think anyone else in Arashi has similar nice looking hands. Well Matsujun's may come close but Ohno will still win hands down. *grinz*
I leave you guys now with my current favourite Arashi's recent peformance of their song Truth. Have a good long weekend!
Click to viewp.s - Happy Chinese New Year & Gong Xi Fa Cai to all my chinese friends (^-^)v