September Daze
Been quite awhile since i've last updated. Truth be told, i've been avoiding updating at all. Why you might ask? I have no idea either, only maybe i'm not allowing myself to think too much and live in the moment. Time seems to fly past very fast nowadays. Maybe i've only begun to realise how fast. Has time always been going by this fast? hmmm... I never really noticed it till now.
Its now mid-September and already there has been so many changes. Sis' flight to Dubai has been postponed to next year. As much as I know she was looking forward to working there, I'm kinda glad she'll be hanging around a little longer. Will miss her when she starts working in Dubai. I won't know when I'll see her next when she starts working there.
Ramadhan is ending soon and the Raya festivities is creeping up fast, not that i'll be enjoying any of it, which i rarely do anyways. It has never been my favourite time of the year, scarred for life one would say. This year, well... I might not even be awake or even if i am, i'd be in a daze with drugs pumped into my system to not feel any pain i might be in. No I have not turned into a drug addict, god forbid. hahaha laughable when you come to think of it. So why would my body be pumped full of drugs? Well lets just put it this way, the date of my surgery has been determined. Open heart surgery ftw! *grinz*
Should i be scared? I try not to think about it. Whenever the topic inevitably comes up when i'm chatting with friends i've met up with recently, i make the conversation as casual as possible, make it sound like the surgery is no big deal. No big deal huh. A huge part of me would like to believe that whatever i'm saying out loud is true. I hope to god i made the right decision on choosing the right valve replacement option. I am a practical person right? and its only right that I make the right choice and not have any expectations of whatever the future might hold for me. Well that's what i keep telling & convincing myself.
I've been stoning alot lately, in an attempt to not to think too much and sometimes unconciously i'd find my eyes and cheeks wet with tears. Where do these tears come from, i have no idea. I don't have any emotions to descibe what ever it is i feel right now. I like to think i'm just going with the flow on the design of my life as it is and numbing myself from any unnecessary feelngs for now. Then i remembered the movie 'City of Angels' that i've watched recently, there was a scene where Nicholas Cage's character, Seth, was having a conversation with Meg Ryan's Character, Maggie, on his theory on why people cry:
Seth: Why do people cry?
Maggie: What do you mean?
Seth: I mean, what happens physically?
Maggie: Well... umm... tear ducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye and when you have an emotion they overact and create tears.
Seth: Why? Why do they overact?
Maggie: [pause] I don't know.
Seth: Maybe... maybe emotion becomes so intense your body just can't contain it. Your mind and your feelings become too powerful, and your body weeps.
Somehow Seth's thoery keeps playing in my head, and sometimes i hope its not true. For now i'd like to stay positive thankyouverymuch.
tsk i should already be a pro at this, with 3 previous surgeries under my belt, what's one more right? Nobody said life was ever fair, le sigh.
lol anyways, lets move on to a lighter subject.
After much fan-fare about the upcoming Twilight movie, my curiosity got the better of me. What's so great about this book that had fans talking non stop about it? The gist i had gotten from all the hype was that it was romance + vampires. Well ok then, vampires huh. That didn't stroke my interest one bit. The last time i watched a vampire movie was Underworld & Blade, oh and whatever vampire they had in Supernatural & re-runs of Buffy the Vampire Slayer on AXN Beyond. So I wasn't really sure if i wanted to pick up a copy of Twilight and start reading it. Maybe someday i thought, and then recently my 3rd brother introduced me to the anime Vampire Knight, subsequently i started watching Blood+, so maybe vampire stories are not all that bad.
Well Naz asked me a couple of weeks back if i've heard of the book if i've read it, which of course i haven't. She bought the book on that very day and before i knew it she was a fan and have read all the four books. Four books? I thought there was only one? lol. Fine i thought to myself, I don't doubt Naz's reading tastes since I will like whatever she reads. So I happened to go by Kinokuniya after one of my hospital check ups last Thursday and picked up a copy of twilight and knowing how fast i can read a book, i picked up the 2nd book as well, New Moon. Well before i knew it i finished reading both on Saturday evening.
Well i don't know if anyone knows this but i hate not knowing what happen next. Since i know there are two more books, on Sunday I was already itching to go to the nearest bookstore to get the final two books, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn, which i did of course. And by Wednesday morning i was already done with both of them. whatttttttttt its done? lol.
The twilight series.. well i agree with naz, its not exactly thought provoking, its actually a fun read. I'm not a die hard fan like some of the people i've seen online are, but i love the characters. Well in the end its all fiction isn't it. I know there are readers out there would love to find their own Edward or Jacob. What i wouldn't give either, but they are fictional characters and lets face up to reality people, such things only happen in fantasies and not reality. lol. But should you ever want to escape from reality for just a little bit and have no expectations, pick up twilight for a read you might get hooked, or maybe not haha.. ;)
ok here's a pic of part of the cast from Twilight the movie.
Okay maybe Robert Pattison might not look as good as how I pictured Edward to be but i guess he'll do.
And what is with Jasper's hair? tsk. haha
Its now mid-September and already there has been so many changes. Sis' flight to Dubai has been postponed to next year. As much as I know she was looking forward to working there, I'm kinda glad she'll be hanging around a little longer. Will miss her when she starts working in Dubai. I won't know when I'll see her next when she starts working there.
Ramadhan is ending soon and the Raya festivities is creeping up fast, not that i'll be enjoying any of it, which i rarely do anyways. It has never been my favourite time of the year, scarred for life one would say. This year, well... I might not even be awake or even if i am, i'd be in a daze with drugs pumped into my system to not feel any pain i might be in. No I have not turned into a drug addict, god forbid. hahaha laughable when you come to think of it. So why would my body be pumped full of drugs? Well lets just put it this way, the date of my surgery has been determined. Open heart surgery ftw! *grinz*
Should i be scared? I try not to think about it. Whenever the topic inevitably comes up when i'm chatting with friends i've met up with recently, i make the conversation as casual as possible, make it sound like the surgery is no big deal. No big deal huh. A huge part of me would like to believe that whatever i'm saying out loud is true. I hope to god i made the right decision on choosing the right valve replacement option. I am a practical person right? and its only right that I make the right choice and not have any expectations of whatever the future might hold for me. Well that's what i keep telling & convincing myself.
I've been stoning alot lately, in an attempt to not to think too much and sometimes unconciously i'd find my eyes and cheeks wet with tears. Where do these tears come from, i have no idea. I don't have any emotions to descibe what ever it is i feel right now. I like to think i'm just going with the flow on the design of my life as it is and numbing myself from any unnecessary feelngs for now. Then i remembered the movie 'City of Angels' that i've watched recently, there was a scene where Nicholas Cage's character, Seth, was having a conversation with Meg Ryan's Character, Maggie, on his theory on why people cry:
Seth: Why do people cry?
Maggie: What do you mean?
Seth: I mean, what happens physically?
Maggie: Well... umm... tear ducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye and when you have an emotion they overact and create tears.
Seth: Why? Why do they overact?
Maggie: [pause] I don't know.
Seth: Maybe... maybe emotion becomes so intense your body just can't contain it. Your mind and your feelings become too powerful, and your body weeps.
Somehow Seth's thoery keeps playing in my head, and sometimes i hope its not true. For now i'd like to stay positive thankyouverymuch.
tsk i should already be a pro at this, with 3 previous surgeries under my belt, what's one more right? Nobody said life was ever fair, le sigh.
lol anyways, lets move on to a lighter subject.
After much fan-fare about the upcoming Twilight movie, my curiosity got the better of me. What's so great about this book that had fans talking non stop about it? The gist i had gotten from all the hype was that it was romance + vampires. Well ok then, vampires huh. That didn't stroke my interest one bit. The last time i watched a vampire movie was Underworld & Blade, oh and whatever vampire they had in Supernatural & re-runs of Buffy the Vampire Slayer on AXN Beyond. So I wasn't really sure if i wanted to pick up a copy of Twilight and start reading it. Maybe someday i thought, and then recently my 3rd brother introduced me to the anime Vampire Knight, subsequently i started watching Blood+, so maybe vampire stories are not all that bad.
Well Naz asked me a couple of weeks back if i've heard of the book if i've read it, which of course i haven't. She bought the book on that very day and before i knew it she was a fan and have read all the four books. Four books? I thought there was only one? lol. Fine i thought to myself, I don't doubt Naz's reading tastes since I will like whatever she reads. So I happened to go by Kinokuniya after one of my hospital check ups last Thursday and picked up a copy of twilight and knowing how fast i can read a book, i picked up the 2nd book as well, New Moon. Well before i knew it i finished reading both on Saturday evening.
Well i don't know if anyone knows this but i hate not knowing what happen next. Since i know there are two more books, on Sunday I was already itching to go to the nearest bookstore to get the final two books, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn, which i did of course. And by Wednesday morning i was already done with both of them. whatttttttttt its done? lol.
The twilight series.. well i agree with naz, its not exactly thought provoking, its actually a fun read. I'm not a die hard fan like some of the people i've seen online are, but i love the characters. Well in the end its all fiction isn't it. I know there are readers out there would love to find their own Edward or Jacob. What i wouldn't give either, but they are fictional characters and lets face up to reality people, such things only happen in fantasies and not reality. lol. But should you ever want to escape from reality for just a little bit and have no expectations, pick up twilight for a read you might get hooked, or maybe not haha.. ;)
ok here's a pic of part of the cast from Twilight the movie.
Okay maybe Robert Pattison might not look as good as how I pictured Edward to be but i guess he'll do.
And what is with Jasper's hair? tsk. haha
