Too tired to think of a witty subject line...
I just had the weirdest dream.
Perhaps inspired by the most recent Dexter or perhaps just my general avoidance of responsibility, I dreamt I was in a relationship for a little while, and then, despite never having bedded the woman in question, she had a baby. And then went on to have another shortly thereafter, followed by finding out that she had three children from previous relationships. And it somehow ended with me in a Native American headdress proclaiming my love for all of them to her and members of my family. The whole thing was terrifying on a number of levels, and it highlighted a number of blindingly obvious things- I'm not even close to ready to raise a child, and I am avoiding responsibility these days. I am doing my damndest to change the latter, but I know the former is something I'll only be more prepared for with time. And I know I want to have kids... someday. The idea of a little monstrosity raised according to my ideals is just too appealing to pass up.
Other than that, not a lot going on... Helped Laura move Monday, going to call SJSU in the very near future and see about taking online courses to get my masters. ...which should be a long, protracted ordeal that I normally would shy away from at all costs, but lord knows it's not getting any easier for a college graduate- with a degree with absolutely no applications in the field he's trying to get into, no less- to get work these days.
Perhaps inspired by the most recent Dexter or perhaps just my general avoidance of responsibility, I dreamt I was in a relationship for a little while, and then, despite never having bedded the woman in question, she had a baby. And then went on to have another shortly thereafter, followed by finding out that she had three children from previous relationships. And it somehow ended with me in a Native American headdress proclaiming my love for all of them to her and members of my family. The whole thing was terrifying on a number of levels, and it highlighted a number of blindingly obvious things- I'm not even close to ready to raise a child, and I am avoiding responsibility these days. I am doing my damndest to change the latter, but I know the former is something I'll only be more prepared for with time. And I know I want to have kids... someday. The idea of a little monstrosity raised according to my ideals is just too appealing to pass up.
Other than that, not a lot going on... Helped Laura move Monday, going to call SJSU in the very near future and see about taking online courses to get my masters. ...which should be a long, protracted ordeal that I normally would shy away from at all costs, but lord knows it's not getting any easier for a college graduate- with a degree with absolutely no applications in the field he's trying to get into, no less- to get work these days.