the time is right..
i dont know if i am able to tell any of you this in person, so i am just going to write it in here. its something that i do not want to talk to, inside or outside of school, but i feel like i have to let my true friends know. this is a very serious matter and i do not wish to talk about this problem. i can only wish that i didnt have this. all along i have been pretending that everything was okay, but its really not. for, i have a disease. however, this disease is not curable. i cry myself to sleep usually every night. i might seem happy, but there are no words to proclaim about how i feel inside. empty. cold. dead. how i wish i could be normal like everybody else without worrying about life every 2 minutes. because my life could end without anybody knowing. any moment. so, if i am to die in my sleep tonite, which i dont think will happen because ive survived 13 years so far, so why would tonite be the night. well, i would just like to thank all of my friends for being there. and especially my best friends- you guys definately know who you are. i love you all so much. i dont know what i would have done without you and im sorry that i havent told you this sooner. but i was not strong enough to tell you in person and i am probably not strong enough to survive the next 10 years. this disease, many of you have heard of, but have never really known the effects of it. my disease, is called Cooties. please do not make fun of me. i would not like to joke about this factor, it is deadly.