i was definatly feeling that last night at the district dinner. you shouldve seen them all, they were all having fun and talking because they can relate to each other and tell secrets to each other because they know each other and feel occumponied in actions together. then there was me. sitting in the corner eating candy. when i get nervous i eat. if you didn't know. and i couldn't talk to anyone about anything because i don't have the fun i have with you guys. and even when i'm with you guys i feel alone. a distant feeling.
and i appreciate how you brought up the point that when people say they dont care what other people think it really means they do care. i've done it before too. the 'what the fuck! i dont care wat you think about me' dealio.. its horrible. i wish everyone could just not be influenced by other people and be true to themselves and others. we would know who our real friends are if this was actually happening.
when you said 'do you ever wonder if people feel the same way about you?'
i was screeming YES in my head.
because i hate it when you give someone so much of your time and effort to be nice and have fun with them and then they go and talk shit about you and act like it to your face.. and i'm not denying i haven't done it before either. that would be wrong because i know i have and i'm admitting it. and i'm sorry for whoever i've been mean to or talked shit behind their backs because they didn't deserve it... unless they really truly did
live your life dear, and never look back.
"well you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it won't come your way
and you never would have thought in the end how amazing it feels just to live again it's a feeling that you cannot miss it burns a hole through everyone that feels it"
blue and yellow -the used
that's right. live it up, its the greatest feeling in the world.
i was definatly feeling that last night at the district dinner. you shouldve seen them all, they were all having fun and talking because they can relate to each other and tell secrets to each other because they know each other and feel occumponied in actions together. then there was me. sitting in the corner eating candy. when i get nervous i eat. if you didn't know. and i couldn't talk to anyone about anything because i don't have the fun i have with you guys. and even when i'm with you guys i feel alone. a distant feeling.
and i appreciate how you brought up the point that when people say they dont care what other people think it really means they do care. i've done it before too. the 'what the fuck! i dont care wat you think about me' dealio.. its horrible. i wish everyone could just not be influenced by other people and be true to themselves and others. we would know who our real friends are if this was actually happening.
when you said 'do you ever wonder if people feel the same way about you?'
i was screeming YES in my head.
because i hate it when you give someone so much of your time and effort to be nice and have fun with them and then they go and talk shit about you and act like it to your face.. and i'm not denying i haven't done it before either. that would be wrong because i know i have and i'm admitting it. and i'm sorry for whoever i've been mean to or talked shit behind their backs because they didn't deserve it... unless they really truly did
live your life dear, and never look back.
"well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
and you never would have thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
it burns a hole through everyone that feels it"
blue and yellow -the used
that's right. live it up, its the greatest feeling in the world.
i love you <3
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