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Slowly but surely, my life is starting to fall back into a consistent rhythm. The past few weeks consisted of little else but self-destruction, including but not limited to non-stop substance abuse, blowing off school and class, and overall shitty behavior to the people around me. I think I've been letting my insecurities get the best of me--something that rarely happens--and my attempt to remedy the situation was to disappear from responsibility and lose myself in drugs, and sleeping in, and generally acting a fooool. But now these habits are catching up with my body and I'm exhausted and ready for change.
I didn't go out last night at all and I was perfectly content. A few people stopped by and hung out for a bit and then I spent the rest of the night watching movies and making food with a certain someone. This is the first weekend in months I've been fine doing nothing but taking it easy. I'm home until tomorrow afternoon to see the family (and hang out with chris!) and getting some much needed rest. I'm slooooowly getting back on track with school and most importantly have fallen back into good graces with all my teachers.
I'm going to try to start smoking on weekdays. At least weekdays when I have work to be done. I'm not going out Sundays, Tuesdays, or Thursdays because I have early classes. I'm getting my work DONE and i'm going to make things I LIKE.
Apologies to everyone who has been affected by my shitty shitty behavior these past weeks. Love you all.
I didn't go out last night at all and I was perfectly content. A few people stopped by and hung out for a bit and then I spent the rest of the night watching movies and making food with a certain someone. This is the first weekend in months I've been fine doing nothing but taking it easy. I'm home until tomorrow afternoon to see the family (and hang out with chris!) and getting some much needed rest. I'm slooooowly getting back on track with school and most importantly have fallen back into good graces with all my teachers.
I'm going to try to start smoking on weekdays. At least weekdays when I have work to be done. I'm not going out Sundays, Tuesdays, or Thursdays because I have early classes. I'm getting my work DONE and i'm going to make things I LIKE.
Apologies to everyone who has been affected by my shitty shitty behavior these past weeks. Love you all.