First Impressions
[Anthony's Point of View]
The room's spinning.
Ow.
This is the worst headache I've ever had.
Goddamn. This isn't going to go away anytime soon. I have to clutch my head it's hurting so fucking much. God.
I'm so tired though. And sleepy. These blankets are really soft and cushy. I think I'll stay here for a while longer. Mmmmmh.
I'm just gonna nuzzle into this warm pillow a little bit more. So soft.
Whoa. What the hell?! There's someone here with me... I think. I know I'm in bed...
This is really weird. I can feel this heat source... thing... right next to me. Oh okay. It really is a person. Wow. Was definitely not expecting that. Ohh... They're so warm. Lemme just slip my hand into-oh! That's nice. I like that.
Thanks, person, for being my anchor right now because I can't really straighten out my thoughts now and I feel like I'm about to fall of the edge of the Earth.
God, this spinning room is annoying the shit out of me. I guess the only thing I can do is lay here. That's okay though. This is nice. I like you, person. You're so warm and comforting. I'm just gonna snuggle a bit more here... Yeah.
I hope you don't mind.
Egh!
My mouth is so dry! I feel like I licked sandpaper. Fucking gross. Maybe if I smack my lips...
No. I gotta get some water. Ugh! I don't wanna get outta bed! It's warm and comfy here!
God, I have the worst hangover imaginable.
I can barely breathe.
Alright, fine! I'll haul my lazy ass out of bed and get a glass of water.
...
...
But I don't wanna get out of beeeeed!
Hrm!
Why do I have to make choices? It's too damn early to make choices right now. I wanna cuddle this person, whoever you are!
I'll swallow a little more spit and hope that's enough. Okay. Mouth's still parched but at least I can stay in bed a little longer.
Hrrrrrrrm....
This pillow smells so good.
Like something.
Like... someone...
Like...
...
...
Doesn't matter. I'm comfy again. Hey person. I'm a little cold. Can I use your body heat for a bit. Thanks!
Oh.
Oh!
You're really warm.
And soft.
God I love your smell.
Can I bury my face in you?
Please?
Well, you're still asleep but I don't think you'll mind.
I can't even open my eyes. I'm too tired! Just let me do this one thing, okay?
Your skin is hot and mushy. Please don't take offense! I like it! I enjoy the feel of you under my fingertips.
Can I also...?
You wouldn't mind if...?
Oh!
You really are sleeping but you don't seem to mind my closeness. Can you help me grasp reality because I can barely hang on.
Is this okay? Am I allowed to move closer to you?
Yes. This is what I need. How far can I go? Can I... may I feel you?
Your skin's on fire. I really don't understand much of this. I'm gonna move over, if that's okay.
Hey.
I'm gonna touch your face.
I know you don't mind. Sleepers usually don't mind.
You're thigh's a little...
I don't wanna say it. I like it, though. It's not something I'm used to.
I'm gonna move my hand up now.
...
I can't tell now. You're young, but then you're not young. This doesn't make sense to me. Sorry if I'm vulgar. I am a man, after all.
But I was expecting... more. In the front region, I mean.
God, why should I even let that be a deciding factor?! I sound like a disgusting pig even thinking about it. Okay, so you're not really... developed in that area yet. Really! I don't mind! Even if my last one was a size D.
I still like you. I mean, you wouldn't be here with me right now if I didn't. I don't take just anyone to my house, let alone my bedroom to fuck, for fuck's sake.
...
I wouldn't have slept with you if it didn't mean anything.
I'm not that kind of guy! I have standards!
Haaaaah....
This is relaxing.
You're relaxing me.
I like this. I like you. I like how you feel when you're with me.
Oh.
You're moving? Waking up?
I want this moment to last though. I wanna stay warm and safe.
With you.
Just a little while longer...
"Anthony?"
Whoa.
"Hey..."
"...Ian?"
"Mmhmm?"
"..."
"..."
"...did we?"
"...um...I guess so."
He's pulling me closer.
"Did I wake you?"
"No! No. I'm just laying here thinking."
"Oh."
"..."
Why am I not shocked? I'm not surprised at all. Is this normal? Is this how I'm supposed to feel now? His hands are on me now, feeling me. It's... kind of nice. I can hear his breath. His heart beating.
"Ian?"
"Anthony. Don't. Please."
"What?"
"Please don't ask me to leave..."
"..."
"Just let me... for a little while longer..."
"...Alright, Ian."
The room's spinning.
Ow.
This is the worst headache I've ever had.
Goddamn. This isn't going to go away anytime soon. I have to clutch my head it's hurting so fucking much. God.
I'm so tired though. And sleepy. These blankets are really soft and cushy. I think I'll stay here for a while longer. Mmmmmh.
I'm just gonna nuzzle into this warm pillow a little bit more. So soft.
Whoa. What the hell?! There's someone here with me... I think. I know I'm in bed...
This is really weird. I can feel this heat source... thing... right next to me. Oh okay. It really is a person. Wow. Was definitely not expecting that. Ohh... They're so warm. Lemme just slip my hand into-oh! That's nice. I like that.
Thanks, person, for being my anchor right now because I can't really straighten out my thoughts now and I feel like I'm about to fall of the edge of the Earth.
God, this spinning room is annoying the shit out of me. I guess the only thing I can do is lay here. That's okay though. This is nice. I like you, person. You're so warm and comforting. I'm just gonna snuggle a bit more here... Yeah.
I hope you don't mind.
Egh!
My mouth is so dry! I feel like I licked sandpaper. Fucking gross. Maybe if I smack my lips...
No. I gotta get some water. Ugh! I don't wanna get outta bed! It's warm and comfy here!
God, I have the worst hangover imaginable.
I can barely breathe.
Alright, fine! I'll haul my lazy ass out of bed and get a glass of water.
...
...
But I don't wanna get out of beeeeed!
Hrm!
Why do I have to make choices? It's too damn early to make choices right now. I wanna cuddle this person, whoever you are!
I'll swallow a little more spit and hope that's enough. Okay. Mouth's still parched but at least I can stay in bed a little longer.
Hrrrrrrrm....
This pillow smells so good.
Like something.
Like... someone...
Like...
...
...
Doesn't matter. I'm comfy again. Hey person. I'm a little cold. Can I use your body heat for a bit. Thanks!
Oh.
Oh!
You're really warm.
And soft.
God I love your smell.
Can I bury my face in you?
Please?
Well, you're still asleep but I don't think you'll mind.
I can't even open my eyes. I'm too tired! Just let me do this one thing, okay?
Your skin is hot and mushy. Please don't take offense! I like it! I enjoy the feel of you under my fingertips.
Can I also...?
You wouldn't mind if...?
Oh!
You really are sleeping but you don't seem to mind my closeness. Can you help me grasp reality because I can barely hang on.
Is this okay? Am I allowed to move closer to you?
Yes. This is what I need. How far can I go? Can I... may I feel you?
Your skin's on fire. I really don't understand much of this. I'm gonna move over, if that's okay.
Hey.
I'm gonna touch your face.
I know you don't mind. Sleepers usually don't mind.
You're thigh's a little...
I don't wanna say it. I like it, though. It's not something I'm used to.
I'm gonna move my hand up now.
...
I can't tell now. You're young, but then you're not young. This doesn't make sense to me. Sorry if I'm vulgar. I am a man, after all.
But I was expecting... more. In the front region, I mean.
God, why should I even let that be a deciding factor?! I sound like a disgusting pig even thinking about it. Okay, so you're not really... developed in that area yet. Really! I don't mind! Even if my last one was a size D.
I still like you. I mean, you wouldn't be here with me right now if I didn't. I don't take just anyone to my house, let alone my bedroom to fuck, for fuck's sake.
...
I wouldn't have slept with you if it didn't mean anything.
I'm not that kind of guy! I have standards!
Haaaaah....
This is relaxing.
You're relaxing me.
I like this. I like you. I like how you feel when you're with me.
Oh.
You're moving? Waking up?
I want this moment to last though. I wanna stay warm and safe.
With you.
Just a little while longer...
"Anthony?"
Whoa.
"Hey..."
"...Ian?"
"Mmhmm?"
"..."
"..."
"...did we?"
"...um...I guess so."
He's pulling me closer.
"Did I wake you?"
"No! No. I'm just laying here thinking."
"Oh."
"..."
Why am I not shocked? I'm not surprised at all. Is this normal? Is this how I'm supposed to feel now? His hands are on me now, feeling me. It's... kind of nice. I can hear his breath. His heart beating.
"Ian?"
"Anthony. Don't. Please."
"What?"
"Please don't ask me to leave..."
"..."
"Just let me... for a little while longer..."
"...Alright, Ian."