it's better to love and lost than to never had loved at all
so i had a talk with jen about this... cuz she brought up the topic... and i have to say... to fall in love and be in love, that's one of the best experience place i've ever been at... to be able to feel the way you do, to be able to enjoy every moment, silent or not, to be in any situation and still enjoy it beyond belief... that's the best place ever... and to know that you're with a person who likes you for you and its not b/c of other things... yeah... it's heaven for you... and it's true, when you do fall in love you give your whole heart to that person, you give everything and leave nothing back, and you just expect them and trust them not to break your heart... sometimes tho, your heart does get broken, well i know mine did, but... it was worth it... i just let him break it, cuz i didnt want him to let go... but i knew he was... so it was somewhat my fault... and yes, everyone knew i was in love w/ him... i can't deny it... and its a feeling that i'm sure, i will find again... but unfortuantely when you give your heart away, you never ever get it back... and time just heals it... and it takes awhile to heal... but you never fully get your heart back... and that's just the fact i have to live with... b/c for that slight moment... everything is worth it...
so basically to find someone who is perfect in your eyes, it's a miracle... and you know, sometimes if you hold on too hard, there are consequences that might occur... but each person who comes into your life that you fall in love w/, it pushes you closer to the actual person who you're suppose to be with... all this optimism... thanks to jen... there isn't a perfect guy for me... but there is someone out there who i can see pass their flaws and call perfect... i guess i'm happy where i am now... it took awhile for me to find a guy like you, it'll take me longer to find someone whose as good as you were too me... i'm gonna always love you, you have my promise...but i don't want you back, and i'm so grateful... you set me free... the things that happened recently, just hit me as wow... i really haven't liked anyone for such a long time... maybe... it's time to start again... you gave me the world, now, i'm gonna give someone else in this world what you gave me... i guess i died after you... i wasn't able to realize what i had to offer... and it lead to a lot of drama... after you... wow... tell me about it... but for one... with everything that has happened.. between you and i, i must say, thank you... for everything... and any girl with you, has got to be the luckiest girl ever... and i would know... b/c to me... you were one hell of a lucky guy :-)
finding someone worth falling in love with and going through all that pain... i truly have to say, for what it's worth, it's definitely WORTH IT ALL... minus, you never get your heart back, that sorta sucks, but if you give it time, you're bound to love again :-)
and this goes out to jen, katie, and melis- if you fall, i will try as hard to lift you back up. if the world crashes down on you, i will be there to glue the pieces back. i couldn't have gotten this far without all three of you. you are my backbone in life, you are my shoulders. you are the tears i cry, you are the emotions i feel. you are my optimism and you are my pessimism :-P. if life decides to play an evil trick on me, and does something to one of you, i will fight as hard to make sure i can save you. i can carry you back. i'd give the world to make you alright, but if it didn't work, if something happens, as hard as i try to make it not, i may just fall apart. i'm strong on both of my feet, but i'm stronger with you three there to support me. if there ever are enough stars up in the night sky, they wouldn't amount to all the times you've saved me from life... the best times are still to come, and i'm looking forward to whatever situations life has to bring, but i know sometimes it's not always good, and i know i will always need all 3 of you to remind me of who i am... cuz, sometimes, i do lose sight of it all... if one of you breaks on me, i'm not sure what i'd really do... you make life what it is, and you remind me to live it to the fullest... i love you guys so much, and i wouldn't give up my past for anything. i made mistakes, but i lived. i learned. and i dreamt. and i believed. all because i had people like you. life is a dream, a dream where you actually gotta work to achieve. and my dream, has a happy ending. it will. it already has plenty of happy endings. thank you.
my love won't go to waste. the people i say i love you too, i do love you. with everything. no matter whether i just met you a few weeks ago or few months ago... or YEARS ago, you came into my life for a reason, you touched me for a reason, and i will never forget you. thank you for everything. and i know to love and care for everyone is who i wanna be. i can't lie. life wouldn't be this good for me, if i never loved ya'll... and to me, all of you guys are perfect in every possible way... because, to me... your flaws can be fixed, but aren't worth as much as what you've done for me...
so yeah... i guess, you are my wonderwall :-) because you are the one whose gonna save me...
---> out, i heart you!
so basically to find someone who is perfect in your eyes, it's a miracle... and you know, sometimes if you hold on too hard, there are consequences that might occur... but each person who comes into your life that you fall in love w/, it pushes you closer to the actual person who you're suppose to be with... all this optimism... thanks to jen... there isn't a perfect guy for me... but there is someone out there who i can see pass their flaws and call perfect... i guess i'm happy where i am now... it took awhile for me to find a guy like you, it'll take me longer to find someone whose as good as you were too me... i'm gonna always love you, you have my promise...but i don't want you back, and i'm so grateful... you set me free... the things that happened recently, just hit me as wow... i really haven't liked anyone for such a long time... maybe... it's time to start again... you gave me the world, now, i'm gonna give someone else in this world what you gave me... i guess i died after you... i wasn't able to realize what i had to offer... and it lead to a lot of drama... after you... wow... tell me about it... but for one... with everything that has happened.. between you and i, i must say, thank you... for everything... and any girl with you, has got to be the luckiest girl ever... and i would know... b/c to me... you were one hell of a lucky guy :-)
finding someone worth falling in love with and going through all that pain... i truly have to say, for what it's worth, it's definitely WORTH IT ALL... minus, you never get your heart back, that sorta sucks, but if you give it time, you're bound to love again :-)
and this goes out to jen, katie, and melis- if you fall, i will try as hard to lift you back up. if the world crashes down on you, i will be there to glue the pieces back. i couldn't have gotten this far without all three of you. you are my backbone in life, you are my shoulders. you are the tears i cry, you are the emotions i feel. you are my optimism and you are my pessimism :-P. if life decides to play an evil trick on me, and does something to one of you, i will fight as hard to make sure i can save you. i can carry you back. i'd give the world to make you alright, but if it didn't work, if something happens, as hard as i try to make it not, i may just fall apart. i'm strong on both of my feet, but i'm stronger with you three there to support me. if there ever are enough stars up in the night sky, they wouldn't amount to all the times you've saved me from life... the best times are still to come, and i'm looking forward to whatever situations life has to bring, but i know sometimes it's not always good, and i know i will always need all 3 of you to remind me of who i am... cuz, sometimes, i do lose sight of it all... if one of you breaks on me, i'm not sure what i'd really do... you make life what it is, and you remind me to live it to the fullest... i love you guys so much, and i wouldn't give up my past for anything. i made mistakes, but i lived. i learned. and i dreamt. and i believed. all because i had people like you. life is a dream, a dream where you actually gotta work to achieve. and my dream, has a happy ending. it will. it already has plenty of happy endings. thank you.
my love won't go to waste. the people i say i love you too, i do love you. with everything. no matter whether i just met you a few weeks ago or few months ago... or YEARS ago, you came into my life for a reason, you touched me for a reason, and i will never forget you. thank you for everything. and i know to love and care for everyone is who i wanna be. i can't lie. life wouldn't be this good for me, if i never loved ya'll... and to me, all of you guys are perfect in every possible way... because, to me... your flaws can be fixed, but aren't worth as much as what you've done for me...
so yeah... i guess, you are my wonderwall :-) because you are the one whose gonna save me...
---> out, i heart you!