Also also wik.
I just read through two months of LJ entries. Not entirely sure why. I read through the "Termination, Death, and Genesis" period of the past year.
And you know what I thought while reading it? I'll tell you:
I'm fucking endearing when I write.
I should have gone to a therapist MONTHS before I finally did.
I've stopped writing about interesting things again. I promise I still think of things the same way, I just feel less inclined to write them. I guess I'm not trying to prove anything to anyone anymore.
I say I've given up band and the instrumental music world, but I didn't. Kinda tried, but it brought me back. Duty...
No-fucking-wonder I didn't understand a damn thing I was studying.
I leave out some of the most important events of my life for the simple reason that I feel guilty making private posts. When exactly was that party where Blake and I made out for the first time and were...slightly impaired (Courtney, I blame you!)? When did Zach visit? When did I realize that Chris removed me as a friend on Facebook and was incredibly hurt by it? When did I return Josh's stuff? When did Blake first hold my hand, and what movie were we watching? WHY DON'T I KNOW THESE THINGS?
Time for bed. I'm actually singing tomorrow at church? C'est vrai! Une miracle!
And you know what I thought while reading it? I'll tell you:
I'm fucking endearing when I write.
I should have gone to a therapist MONTHS before I finally did.
I've stopped writing about interesting things again. I promise I still think of things the same way, I just feel less inclined to write them. I guess I'm not trying to prove anything to anyone anymore.
I say I've given up band and the instrumental music world, but I didn't. Kinda tried, but it brought me back. Duty...
No-fucking-wonder I didn't understand a damn thing I was studying.
I leave out some of the most important events of my life for the simple reason that I feel guilty making private posts. When exactly was that party where Blake and I made out for the first time and were...slightly impaired (Courtney, I blame you!)? When did Zach visit? When did I realize that Chris removed me as a friend on Facebook and was incredibly hurt by it? When did I return Josh's stuff? When did Blake first hold my hand, and what movie were we watching? WHY DON'T I KNOW THESE THINGS?
Time for bed. I'm actually singing tomorrow at church? C'est vrai! Une miracle!