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Yesterday was great I got to hang out with my friend I hadn't seen since Halloween. We had coffee and got our hair trimmed on a whim!
One side of me wants to quit Starbucks, put school on hold so I can work on my darkroom, art and business, pay things off slowly that way, and not constantly be missing out on stuff Billy and friends always wonder why I don;t have time for fun things.
The other part of me wants to stay in school and keep sacrificing things I love to eventually get a bachelor's.
Either way I am $2999 in debt so i feel like I can't do either and it's driving me crazy, I feel like I need a real plan that balances things and I feel like I'm just on my own.
If I take Math this summer, (that's almost four hours a day mon-fri) not including homework time. For me it is going to be torture. I work weekends, but have so many weekends to ask off this summer for weddings and stuff I'll only go more into debt. Then it would pretty much be the same for fall. More into debt, studying, not much time for work and feeling obligated to do house stuff all the time because Billy's otherwise supporting me. Then I would be going to the university in the sring and about quadruple my debt, and I can't concentrate knowing I can't pay my bills. I don't know what to do I feel like I have to decide right now.
I'm ditching painting today because I never did the paintings for the midterm because of covering shifts and studying for my other two midterms, painting takes houuuuuurs. So. Thinking.
One side of me wants to quit Starbucks, put school on hold so I can work on my darkroom, art and business, pay things off slowly that way, and not constantly be missing out on stuff Billy and friends always wonder why I don;t have time for fun things.
The other part of me wants to stay in school and keep sacrificing things I love to eventually get a bachelor's.
Either way I am $2999 in debt so i feel like I can't do either and it's driving me crazy, I feel like I need a real plan that balances things and I feel like I'm just on my own.
If I take Math this summer, (that's almost four hours a day mon-fri) not including homework time. For me it is going to be torture. I work weekends, but have so many weekends to ask off this summer for weddings and stuff I'll only go more into debt. Then it would pretty much be the same for fall. More into debt, studying, not much time for work and feeling obligated to do house stuff all the time because Billy's otherwise supporting me. Then I would be going to the university in the sring and about quadruple my debt, and I can't concentrate knowing I can't pay my bills. I don't know what to do I feel like I have to decide right now.
I'm ditching painting today because I never did the paintings for the midterm because of covering shifts and studying for my other two midterms, painting takes houuuuuurs. So. Thinking.