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[esoterian]

I finished with A's & a B I should be rejoicing;
my Health and TIme jumped into the fire
that was
School & Time and

Now

We've had Lilly almost a month and she is our
animal besides Simon ( the furry gray siamese guy)
Who sleeps on our bed and does not weigh as much.
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I don't sleep much at all
I feel old
I feel ugly
I feel dead even
and then I remember: I've gotten thru "worse"
(even if it took the better part of ten years)
(even though it almost cost me the man who would marry me)
(even though it left me catching up for so long)

I keep writing shit and deleting shit what;s the point.

I've tried twice since I've decided now to quit drinking, and failed. Failed Failed

But everything else is going good. I have energy, in comparison to the weeks I was sick and then exams
and stupid customers per hour testing my patients and

Oh my gosh we leave early in the morning and still have to pack and finish presents and I will be back soon I'm thinking of you all I am loosing my mind I will be back soon.

Have a happy holiday and enjoy time with your family and Keep love alive