New SPN Fic: Prayers to Summon the Destroying Angel

[esorlehcar]

I seem, kind of bizarrely and completely accidentally, to have ended up with a 'verse, which I suppose I should get around to naming, at some point. Anyway, um. More. Though you don't really need the other stories and there isn't really slash and I don't really know what more to say beyond that this kind of wrote itself without a lot of active

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[tabaqui]

Oh, that's hard to read. Very hard. John dying really would just send Dean into a hell of a tailspin.
I like the days adding up, every day getting harder. Good stuff.

[esorlehcar]

Dean has such an interesting relationship with John. There's that old line, "Mother is the name for god on the lips of a child," that really sums it up, I think - Dean never had that break most children have, he never really started seeing his father as a fallible human being, and his whole life, everything he's ever wanted and needed for himself, is wrapped up in John and Sam. I think losing either one of them would come damn near to breaking him, and losing John is some ways would be worst, at least at this point, because on some level I don't think he's ever stopped thinking of Sam as lost to him, current (temporary, according to Sam) circumstances notwithstanding

[tabaqui]

John is the man Dean measures himself by, and he *never* measures up, i don't think, in his own mind. And he feels every 'failure' like a brick on his back and i think he's just given up so much of himself and his needs to being what John *and Sam* need that the thought of being alone makes him panic.

I think he would feel completely unhinged. I really would like a fic where we get to see the damage done by Sam's absence when there was no 'buffer' between him and John.

I luff John, i do, but he's fucked Dean over in a lot of ways, and Sam too. *hey, Kriepke said* so...yeah.

I'm ambiguous about John. I like him, but making it into a three-lead show wouldn't work. I'd like him to go back to being on his own, just showing up sometimes.

Is is September yet???

[esorlehcar]

Oh, John fucked Sam and Dean in HUGE ways, and in many ways Dean more than Sam simply because Sam was able to make the break (which clearly John fought tooth and nail) and Dean never even tried. I love John, too, and I hate it when people try to make him into the boogeyman -- as with both his sons, he's a complex character with strengths and flaws and anyone who ignores either not paying attention or a lousy fucking writer.

I'll go you one better, and say I think adding John on a regular would kill the show. I like the character, I do, but what makes the show amazing is Sam and Dean, their relationship with each other and the evolution of that, and what makes it fun is them being boys and brothers. You add John in all the time, you lose all that. They become sons and soldiers; it's more dour, more angry, more fraught. Which can be very effective for episodes here and there, but would be torturous as a weekly exercise.

I think he would feel completely unhinged. I really would like a fic where we get to see the damage done by

[tabaqui]

Yeah, it really would. John's just too....suicidally focused to ever be lighthearted or let the boys play pranks... And i think Dean would just sink right back down into himself if John were there all the time.

I think that's what happened a lot - Dean just goes on automatic soldier around John, particularly 'pre show', and all of *him* just...goes away. I think maybe Sam saw that and it freaked him out - made him panic and made him mad at John *and* Dean. I think he sees how important it is for Dean to fight his dad so he fought *for* him, and Dean's finally seeing it, too.