My Uncle died and I hate life right now

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Ok so yeah...... about a week ago my uncle David got in a bad motorcycle accident and he was put into a coma and then yesterday morning they took him off the life support machines and all that jazz and told us tHAT HE WAS BRAIN DEAD...... AHHHHH And of course my father didn't want to believe this so he forced himself to believe the doctors are liars.... once again my father lying to himself to feel better and it working because of his stupid meds he takes too much of! But any ways so yeah they took him off his life support and everything and then this morn at like 1 o'clock he died.... Ahhh! I seriously hate this! I thought God was supposed to answer prayers! Well wtf? He didn't really answer one there! How could this happen! It isn't friggin fair! My Uncle is gone! My father is so sick..... he says he is getting a lil better because he isnt hurting as bad and maybe he wont have to take as much eds anymore but to tell you the truth I think my daddy is going to die soon :( I just got a really bad feeling about it..... things always seem to get better before they get worse.... I have a really bad feeling about this.... my bad feelings usually turn up true also so I am very irritated.... I'm sick of this... sick of this life! Why does god always take the people I love away? i'm done with it all.... Im gonna go into a silent mode for a while. I don't really feel like talking to anyone and every time i start to talk I end up in tears so I give up...

I hate this life and I want out! Why couldn't god have taken me instead!!! Not as many people would have been hurt that way!!! I HATE MOTORCYCLES!!!! They are too dangerous!!!

NO LOVE HERE RIGHT NOW... JUST DEPRESSION AND LONLINESS

Chelsea