So yeah...
Good morning to...well...who ever. It's been a long time since I've posted on here eh? A whole what, seven months now? I'm feeling old. Not really. I've been very contumplative lately. Thinking about my life, my past, whats to come. I've discovered some very interesting things. I'm actually really ashamed of how I acted in the past. How I treated people, how I acted. I used to be so shy, then I'd meet someone and totally open up to the point where I would drive some people away. I lost a lot of really good people in my life that way. One thing I found out is that I really don't know what to do with my life. I feel my interest in art waining. Which makes it tough to get an art degree don't you think? I found that I never took, and still usually don't take responsibility for my actions. I'll try and pin it to someone or something else. Or I procrastinate to the point something bad happens. Did it with my car, had to buy a new engine. Did it with money, had to close my bank account. I put off being with friends, and now the only person I have that I can really trust is Channa. Things in my life right now are going...well fair I suppose. We're renting a room from a friend's parents. So I'm basically living at home in some one else's home. Joy. I'm three months behind on car/insurance payments. And I just discovered that we owe Channa's school $2,000. Plus change. I'm totally unstable with money, I spend it on crap I don't need to and know I probably shouldn't. So I end up with very little money when I need to pay bills. I don't know what I want to do for school. I've tossed around the idea of a wild life degree. Still thinking about a graphic design thing. Maybe I'll write a best selling book. God when are things supposed to get better for me?
On the brighter side I started another job. Me and Channa both work at the Mystic Lake hotel. She cleans rooms, I'm a houseman which I don't feel like explaining. All I know is that its much, much less stressful right now. I miss the daycare some times though. Its been...just over a year since I've been there? Maybe I should stop by and say hi. I've actually been talking to a few people more often that I hadn't for a while. I'm talking to Lacey on occasion now. Other then Channa and Celestina she's the only other girlfriend I've had that hadn't cheated on me. ...Wow. That's a bad track record now that I read that. 8 girlfriends. 3 were faithful. -_-
Anyways. Between the two of us we bring in about 2200-2400 a month. So hopefully we can get back into a good money place. OH! My sister is pregnant! Woo! So I'll be an uncle next year. =D Thats pretty cool. She also got her own house and stuff so her and Jason are doing good. Which is nice, she deserves it. Heh, actually it kind of depresses me cuz I look at myself and I just feel like I'm a mess. I can't afford college yet. I'm living in someone else's house with his family. I make crap for money that I drive 45 minutes to an hour to earn. I think my car is dying, and everything bottled up over the last 22 years is tearing my body and mind to shreds. *sigh*
But hey, Things could be worse. At least I know I'm not alone in all this. =)
On the brighter side I started another job. Me and Channa both work at the Mystic Lake hotel. She cleans rooms, I'm a houseman which I don't feel like explaining. All I know is that its much, much less stressful right now. I miss the daycare some times though. Its been...just over a year since I've been there? Maybe I should stop by and say hi. I've actually been talking to a few people more often that I hadn't for a while. I'm talking to Lacey on occasion now. Other then Channa and Celestina she's the only other girlfriend I've had that hadn't cheated on me. ...Wow. That's a bad track record now that I read that. 8 girlfriends. 3 were faithful. -_-
Anyways. Between the two of us we bring in about 2200-2400 a month. So hopefully we can get back into a good money place. OH! My sister is pregnant! Woo! So I'll be an uncle next year. =D Thats pretty cool. She also got her own house and stuff so her and Jason are doing good. Which is nice, she deserves it. Heh, actually it kind of depresses me cuz I look at myself and I just feel like I'm a mess. I can't afford college yet. I'm living in someone else's house with his family. I make crap for money that I drive 45 minutes to an hour to earn. I think my car is dying, and everything bottled up over the last 22 years is tearing my body and mind to shreds. *sigh*
But hey, Things could be worse. At least I know I'm not alone in all this. =)