May 27, 2010 00:06
I want to fuck. This means have good, hard, raunchy, steamy sex. Not raunchy in the way feet odor is raunchy, but in the way sex, even good sex, is raunchy. Of course I want many another things, including love and to be loved and other emo Bull Shit; but right now I want to fuck a guy who can get hard and when I start fucking away at him, it actually feels like there is a man's penis inside me. I'm pretty tired of just the finger or just the tic- tack. Fuck that. I wanna fuck a guy, or be fucked by a guy who's dick is big enough that five minutes later it still fells like I had sex.
Its ironic b.c anymore people, including men, make it seem as though I could get all sorts of guys, fuck when ever I wanted to, but no. Such is not the case. Attractive women, whether somewhat attractive like I am or really attractive, such as a model I'll say, can't get decent men in their lives, not men who will sleep with them and not treat them like shit.
Worst thing is, if I were in a relationship (and I hate the word) the sex would be even worse than having no sex at all.
I'd rather have no sex than bad sex. Se la vie de Emily.