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I'm familiar with a difficulty in making friends. And so what, strangers remain strangers. Not a big deal.
But, it seems quite unreasonable that I have a difficulty in retaining friends. Where once this man had an affinity for me as a friend, now he scoffs and makes cracks at my expense, in front of me, to me. No only is he no longer my friend, but he parades the fact that I am meaningless to him. It is difficult to reconcile that such may be in consequence of my actions, my behavior, of who I am. How would I ever reconcile that? Except to consider him a piece of shit, which of course, I do not want to do.
I just hate that it was okay for him tonight to make fun of me so darkly, in front of our collegues, and they laughed at me with him. There was a string of remarks made in the shadow of blatant disrepsect. A collective disrespect for me. I am not okay with that, and I see no reason to be.
But, it seems quite unreasonable that I have a difficulty in retaining friends. Where once this man had an affinity for me as a friend, now he scoffs and makes cracks at my expense, in front of me, to me. No only is he no longer my friend, but he parades the fact that I am meaningless to him. It is difficult to reconcile that such may be in consequence of my actions, my behavior, of who I am. How would I ever reconcile that? Except to consider him a piece of shit, which of course, I do not want to do.
I just hate that it was okay for him tonight to make fun of me so darkly, in front of our collegues, and they laughed at me with him. There was a string of remarks made in the shadow of blatant disrepsect. A collective disrespect for me. I am not okay with that, and I see no reason to be.