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I think I am having some issues. I am not able to focus at all. It's like something is taking over in my head and I can do nothing about it. I have tried everything. Reading....just seems to aid to whatever is bothering me. Movies too. I have tried practicing. The only thing I can seem to focus on is scales. And we all know how much fun those are. Even today at work, I thought I was going to fly off the handle at my kids. I eventually decided to just show a movie to one of the groups of kids until I could gain focus back. I think I may have to take a sick day from work and call it a mental day. I am just about at my end. I mean, something that should not have set me off yesterday go me so worked up that when Ryan picked me up, heat was radiating from the skin and fogging up his car. I don't even think I could talk normal to him. I had to focus that much on not exploding. Then within a hour I was fine. Not mad anymore, but still could not focus. This is totally not me. Things don't tend to throw me for a loop this much.