Fuckin' A
This a posting I made to my J-pouch support group yesterday.
I had a disappointing visit to the doctor today. These past weeks I
thought the J-pouch was already constructed and I would be able to
have the takedown in early July. It turns out that is not the case. My
surgeon only took out the colon to help me get better since I was so
ill. I still have a major surgery ahead of me to construct the pouch
and remove the rectum. Then I may still have to keep the ileostomy for
a bit while the "contsruction" heals. Since I am still recovering my
strength and health due to fatigue and anemia it looks like I won't be
ready for a while.
This is very disappointing news. I thought I would finish up surgery
before the end of the summer and start back at work when the new
school year commences, I'm a school nurse. Now I'm thinking I'll have
to wait until next summer for the next surgery because there is no way
I can build myself, have major surgery and be ready to go back to work
in mid-August.
I feel like I want to break things. It's good that I don't have a problem restraining myself when I feel this way, anymore, because I am sure Rachel would be quite pissed if she came home to broken shit, like this monitor. If I had more energy I might go to Pizza Put and play that boxing simulator game. The way things are going I would probably get my ass kicked and leave more frustrated than I am now.
I did get a note to be out of work for the rest of the school year since I can't take a walk without needing to lie down afterwards. That's kinda good, although, I rather I was able to be up and about more. For now I'll clean up a bit here, something I've been obssesively doing in small bursts when I have the energy, and then I'll beat some people up on my new GTA San Andreas that I got for $14.99 at Downtown Discs. At least there is some constructive use for video game violence, venting!
I had a disappointing visit to the doctor today. These past weeks I
thought the J-pouch was already constructed and I would be able to
have the takedown in early July. It turns out that is not the case. My
surgeon only took out the colon to help me get better since I was so
ill. I still have a major surgery ahead of me to construct the pouch
and remove the rectum. Then I may still have to keep the ileostomy for
a bit while the "contsruction" heals. Since I am still recovering my
strength and health due to fatigue and anemia it looks like I won't be
ready for a while.
This is very disappointing news. I thought I would finish up surgery
before the end of the summer and start back at work when the new
school year commences, I'm a school nurse. Now I'm thinking I'll have
to wait until next summer for the next surgery because there is no way
I can build myself, have major surgery and be ready to go back to work
in mid-August.
I feel like I want to break things. It's good that I don't have a problem restraining myself when I feel this way, anymore, because I am sure Rachel would be quite pissed if she came home to broken shit, like this monitor. If I had more energy I might go to Pizza Put and play that boxing simulator game. The way things are going I would probably get my ass kicked and leave more frustrated than I am now.
I did get a note to be out of work for the rest of the school year since I can't take a walk without needing to lie down afterwards. That's kinda good, although, I rather I was able to be up and about more. For now I'll clean up a bit here, something I've been obssesively doing in small bursts when I have the energy, and then I'll beat some people up on my new GTA San Andreas that I got for $14.99 at Downtown Discs. At least there is some constructive use for video game violence, venting!