May 05, 2004 00:50
hmm.. shits been boring!!! well 2day i came home took a shower got in pjs and watched tv... well the doorbell rings at like 630 and who do you think it is!! its Chris i was hoping id never see him again bc every time i do i hurt... i just wish i never messed up.. even tho i really didnt he did.... but whatever... well idk we didnt talk much i was just in shock that he came and that i looked like i just woke up and i got a sty (sp) which makes me look like i got a swollen eye!! idk we didnt really talk.. he brought 2 of his friends... i prolly woulda talked more if he was alone.. actually all he asked me was how i was doing about 987897 times... then i just got boring and he was like well we gotta go... well idk i want him to come again but i dont... bc i mean if he does imma tell him that i dont think he should see me again bc every time i see him its like my feelings come bak and idk if he didnt change and hes gunna be the same like after we fought imma just get upset and thats not good bc how can i get any worse!!
well idk i just tryed to act like i wasnt happy he came to see mee but he prolly saw right through that bc he knos how i am... well idk i really do need to go b4 i end up writing a book and shit bc i could