Does the heart mend itself if you don't want it to?
How can something that's making me this upset be the right thing? Shouldn't I feel better now? But I don't. I'm still miserable, if not worse. I still love him.
He wasn't even remotley upset. That floors me. We dated for a year and nothing. No questions, no attempts to keep me or fix the problem....nothing. Was I really that meaningless to you Nik? Honestly....I thought you'd at least take the time to talk to me. Were you just waiting for me to do it so that you wouldn't have to? I don't understand.
I love you and I'm sorry. For so many things....I didn't want to ruin the wedding so I didn't say anything. I wanted to do it in person, but I couldn't see you Sunday, you were busy Monday, and I couldn't wait until Friday and be that cruel. I don't want it to be over. I wanted you to fight and fix it. Why wasn't I important enough for you to fight and say I was wrong?
I can't sleep.
My eyes are full of tears too tired to fall that won't go away.
When will peace come?
When will this pain fade so that I can smile again?
Why did it have to end?
He wasn't even remotley upset. That floors me. We dated for a year and nothing. No questions, no attempts to keep me or fix the problem....nothing. Was I really that meaningless to you Nik? Honestly....I thought you'd at least take the time to talk to me. Were you just waiting for me to do it so that you wouldn't have to? I don't understand.
I love you and I'm sorry. For so many things....I didn't want to ruin the wedding so I didn't say anything. I wanted to do it in person, but I couldn't see you Sunday, you were busy Monday, and I couldn't wait until Friday and be that cruel. I don't want it to be over. I wanted you to fight and fix it. Why wasn't I important enough for you to fight and say I was wrong?
I can't sleep.
My eyes are full of tears too tired to fall that won't go away.
When will peace come?
When will this pain fade so that I can smile again?
Why did it have to end?