Rubbish!!
I am so bored right now. Bored with my job especially. I feel as though I am back to square one again and I feel like a failure. I know that I can always go back to uni if I want to but, I dunno, I just feel as though I've fallen flat on my face.
Things with Dan are amazing, if it weren't for him I would never of had the courage to look at my life and make the changes I did. I know deep down that nursing just wasn't for me and that there are other ways that I can look after people and help them.
I'm so angry at myself for the debt that surrounds me. I know that, even though I am starting to pay it off, it is going to be years til it has gone. I know I made mistakes when I was younger and if I knew then what I know now..... I'm angry because, if Dan and I were to decide to buy a house, which we have spoken about, then we probably won't be able to as I am shit. I guess I know that I will just have to do all I can to get rid of this debt and make it so that we can do what we want next year, be it buying a house or maybe travelling! Who knows.
Work is really getting me down. I feel really stressed at the moment and I'm getting stupid headaches and feeling so incredibly tired all the time. I'm being snappy at Dan and moody because I get in from work and I want to do is, well, die on the sofa. Hmm, we'll see what Tuesday brings I suppose.
Right, I'm going to go because all this is bringing all my rubbish feelings to the fore front and making me feel a bit down.
x x