Temporary hiatus
I'm not even sure why the hell I'm busy atm and don't feel like I have the time for checking emails, comments, new posts, etc regarding LJ, but, well, I really don't feel like I have it atm, sadly. I guess it's the continued joblessness, still not knowing if I've passed my BA and can start on my MA in the beginning of February, the lack of money, and the fact that I in only 7 days will have the keys to my new apartment (:D :D :D) which is stressing me and making me unfocused and too hyper to really sit in front of the computer in more than 5 minutes. So there we are. Hiatus for the time being.
But just a quick question: is anyone here familiar with sleep paralysis?
I've experienced it as far back as I can remember in the hypnopompic state, and some times I've experienced it while also hallucinating. Normally I haven't thought much about it. It's not comfortable, but it's not normally dangerous unless it's combined with narcolepsy, which I doubt I have. But last night I had it while hallucinating and... it reminded me of how fucking horrible it is and, well, I'm tired of it. It was a hallucination I've experienced - with variations before: Basically what I'm "experiencing": I'm sleeping, then I wake up due to something (last night it was the noise of the door going up and a breeze going under the duvet) and I experience someone is laying down on me (last night on my back 'cause I was on my stomach) and I can't fucking move or speak or do anything. Last night - while I can't really remember the face - I could clearly see the person's face as my face was "on the side" and he "put his face next to mine and looked at me" (except of course he wasn't real. I feel somewhat silly over writing him like he was real -_-). It probably only lasted a couple of seconds - maybe a minute or so -, but it felt so much longer. And then I woke up and new it was one of the goddamn experiences again. But the fear was still there, the panic - and I can still feel it right now.
So right now I'm googling and trying to find a way to... not necessarily threat it, but somehow lower the risk of getting it. And I'm wondering - do anyone have any suggestions?
And that didn't turn into a quick question, ups.
But just a quick question: is anyone here familiar with sleep paralysis?
I've experienced it as far back as I can remember in the hypnopompic state, and some times I've experienced it while also hallucinating. Normally I haven't thought much about it. It's not comfortable, but it's not normally dangerous unless it's combined with narcolepsy, which I doubt I have. But last night I had it while hallucinating and... it reminded me of how fucking horrible it is and, well, I'm tired of it. It was a hallucination I've experienced - with variations before: Basically what I'm "experiencing": I'm sleeping, then I wake up due to something (last night it was the noise of the door going up and a breeze going under the duvet) and I experience someone is laying down on me (last night on my back 'cause I was on my stomach) and I can't fucking move or speak or do anything. Last night - while I can't really remember the face - I could clearly see the person's face as my face was "on the side" and he "put his face next to mine and looked at me" (except of course he wasn't real. I feel somewhat silly over writing him like he was real -_-). It probably only lasted a couple of seconds - maybe a minute or so -, but it felt so much longer. And then I woke up and new it was one of the goddamn experiences again. But the fear was still there, the panic - and I can still feel it right now.
So right now I'm googling and trying to find a way to... not necessarily threat it, but somehow lower the risk of getting it. And I'm wondering - do anyone have any suggestions?
And that didn't turn into a quick question, ups.