Wise men say only fools rush in...but I can't help..
To say I'm infatuated would be an understatement. =o I feel like jumping up and down saying "This isn't fair!" But at the same time I want to just yell at the top of my lungs "woo-hoo" Lol, like in Freaky Friday. Oh man. During the whole process of trying to pretend I have a wall and stop being so emotional, I think it actually worked. Even though I want to so bad, I'm holding back. I don't really understand, usually I'd be like "omgiloveyou" but right now all I have in the back of my mind is how many times i've been hurt so badly. I'm scared I think.. Mostly I'm just afraid that if he assumes I'm this wonderful person then come to find out I'm just not that extraordinary & he'll be dissapointed.. I don't want to dissapoint him. And here comes the "he's too good to be true" conscience. I wish I wasn't so jaded. I guess you're probably wondering who "he" is. Or maybe you don't care, but too bad. I'm going to tell you =) His name is James Howard.. I don't know his last name. Lol i don't even know his last name. But I do know that he's a football player, he has very selective hearing and he knows almost every line to the movie Napoleon Dynamite. Which, might I mention, i would too IF My mother hadn't taken the movie back before I could watch it eighty-seven million times. I guess I'll just have to buy that, now won't I ? Lol.
Anyways, in some ways I know a lot about him.. in other ways I don't. Maybe that's why this is so crazy. I think I should really try to go get some sleep now.. hopefully dream of him. Man, see how cheesy I sound?
Lol all I know is that this smile seems to be permanent.
Anyways, in some ways I know a lot about him.. in other ways I don't. Maybe that's why this is so crazy. I think I should really try to go get some sleep now.. hopefully dream of him. Man, see how cheesy I sound?
Lol all I know is that this smile seems to be permanent.