Garden State.

[esk_emokisses]

Today I just kinda hung out with my mom.. we did random things like tried to go to the Salvation army.. but we only managed to survive about 5 whole minutes. It was pretty cool up until I was pissed because my pants sucked.. the zipper/fly or what ever like bulged and it made me look like I had a penis. So for about an hour my mom was like "what's wrong with you" finally I'm lik "IT LOOKS LIKE I HAVE A FRIGGEN PENIS" and then we both just laughed, so I got over it. Lol ..yes I guess I'm kind of weird, but I couldn't help but think how everyone who looked at me must've been thinking "oh I think s'he' definitely has a secret" So that was pissing me off. Yeaaah anyways then we came home & I got a message from Ryan, the guy who gave me the interview at DQ. He was just wondering if I was still interested in the job.. I was like hmm let me check my schedule, not. Lol that was pretty cool.. I couldn't celebrate because that was shortly after the penis worrying incident so first I took a cold shower & then took the time to be excited about that. Michael finally texted me around 7 while I was watching Gilmore Girls with my mom. I was pissed, as usual, because we haven't been talking. Just the fact that whenever he's done with his friends if he feels like it, he'll schedule me in. What ever, you know? So I told him I was busy and maybe we could talk the next time he isn't too busy for me, like around June 5th. He didn't really get that sarcasm but oh well. I can't believe we're growing apart.. he's this huge part of me & I don't know if I can make it with out him. I mean, I know I won't die or anything.. I'll just really miss who I am/was with him. But things change, right?
I start a job on Saturday.
For some unknown reason Cody is back to chasing after me.
My best friend and my only true love is just fading away.
My life is changing so much right now and I'm just sitting here watch it all go by like it's some slow motion replay.