Frustrated Angry Rant
[This was written while I was in California.]
I'm so angry right now and I'm so sick of being here. I don't believe this and I really have no desire to hear about any more of it currently. I don't want to talk to anyone. I just want to be alone and stare at a wall for hours. Who cares about being happy? Whatever. This college, it's for people that truly believe or that want to learn about this. I fit in neither of those categories. If. If. If. If. If any thing they say here is even true then fine. I honestly don't care. Btw did I tell you that I despise soulwinning? I mean, I love meeting the people, but I get angry telling them about something I don't even believe. Who am I, doubtful as I am, to have the audacity to go up to someone at the privacy of their very home and tell them something is true and expect them to believe it when I DON'T EVEN BELIEVE IT!? It just infuriates me that it's a requirement of attending this college. I don't belong here. I have big churches. Why must things be this way. I HATE THIS WAY OF LIVING. Mom, I can't wait to see you again. I have no deep relationships with people and all I want is to run away from the people I see or the people that seem interested in me. I'd rather watch them and try to figure out if they're for real or not. Maybe that's why I can't stand it here sometimes. This isn't me and I can't conform to this. |: |
I'm so angry right now and I'm so sick of being here. I don't believe this and I really have no desire to hear about any more of it currently. I don't want to talk to anyone. I just want to be alone and stare at a wall for hours. Who cares about being happy? Whatever. This college, it's for people that truly believe or that want to learn about this. I fit in neither of those categories. If. If. If. If. If any thing they say here is even true then fine. I honestly don't care. Btw did I tell you that I despise soulwinning? I mean, I love meeting the people, but I get angry telling them about something I don't even believe. Who am I, doubtful as I am, to have the audacity to go up to someone at the privacy of their very home and tell them something is true and expect them to believe it when I DON'T EVEN BELIEVE IT!? It just infuriates me that it's a requirement of attending this college. I don't belong here. I have big churches. Why must things be this way. I HATE THIS WAY OF LIVING. Mom, I can't wait to see you again. I have no deep relationships with people and all I want is to run away from the people I see or the people that seem interested in me. I'd rather watch them and try to figure out if they're for real or not. Maybe that's why I can't stand it here sometimes. This isn't me and I can't conform to this. |: |