Meta: why do I read these old stories again?
My best friend cum stalker has taken over the main website for my main fandom ( The Lost Cave, if you were curious), and I'm working on uploading my stories to the shiny! new! automated archive. This is vaguely depressing, and I doubt I'd do it if she wasn't the one running the site, now.
I look back over the stories as I post them, and oh man, I suck. Suck like the suckingest thing to ever suck, because I feel a badly written comparison will best show just how much I suck. And it's not that I have such high expectations of my writing in the first place; I hated the stories as soon as they were completed, some of them while I wrote them, but because of the encouragement of some truly crazy people, I posted them, and continue to let them be on the net. And I'm not looking for comments that praise my writing, I'm just saying that it's strange to go back and read what you once wrote, or at least it is to me.
The plots are still interesting, for the most part, but the writing is horrible, so stilted and jerky. And I don't necessarily mind this, except for when I mourn it in my own head, but then I look at what I'm writing now, and I fear soon I'll feel the same about it. And I actually like much of what I'm writing now. And that thought scares me.
I'm thinking about taking down my website, too. I don't have the time to give it proper attention these days, and now that The Lost Cave hosts all ratings of fiction, there is no real reason for Of Luv and Blood. I would like a site just for my stories, and I think Sarah has offered to make one for me, but I really think it's time for Of Luv and Blood to come down. There are a number of wonderful stories on it, but I think they would be better hosted at The Lost Cave. I just don't know.
One thing is clear; I do need a site just for my fiction, in all the fandoms, and I need it soon. In fact, I need to round up my stories and figure out what I can do for the remix/redux before it starts, this year. I'm still looking for Lost Boys writers. Off the top of my head, I need to contact Bat (to make sure she still wants to do it), Ziggy, Sarah, Keya, and maybe Raeann, just to see if they'd be interested. Tomorrow, because I should probably try to sleep soon, now.
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I look back over the stories as I post them, and oh man, I suck. Suck like the suckingest thing to ever suck, because I feel a badly written comparison will best show just how much I suck. And it's not that I have such high expectations of my writing in the first place; I hated the stories as soon as they were completed, some of them while I wrote them, but because of the encouragement of some truly crazy people, I posted them, and continue to let them be on the net. And I'm not looking for comments that praise my writing, I'm just saying that it's strange to go back and read what you once wrote, or at least it is to me.
The plots are still interesting, for the most part, but the writing is horrible, so stilted and jerky. And I don't necessarily mind this, except for when I mourn it in my own head, but then I look at what I'm writing now, and I fear soon I'll feel the same about it. And I actually like much of what I'm writing now. And that thought scares me.
I'm thinking about taking down my website, too. I don't have the time to give it proper attention these days, and now that The Lost Cave hosts all ratings of fiction, there is no real reason for Of Luv and Blood. I would like a site just for my stories, and I think Sarah has offered to make one for me, but I really think it's time for Of Luv and Blood to come down. There are a number of wonderful stories on it, but I think they would be better hosted at The Lost Cave. I just don't know.
One thing is clear; I do need a site just for my fiction, in all the fandoms, and I need it soon. In fact, I need to round up my stories and figure out what I can do for the remix/redux before it starts, this year. I'm still looking for Lost Boys writers. Off the top of my head, I need to contact Bat (to make sure she still wants to do it), Ziggy, Sarah, Keya, and maybe Raeann, just to see if they'd be interested. Tomorrow, because I should probably try to sleep soon, now.
This entry was original posted at http://escritoireazul.dreamwidth.org/157373.html with
comments. Reply here or there.