please take the time
well im not one to express to much but some things have been pretty fucked up in my life and so far as angermanage management has taught me its to come out with things. Ive been trying to go with a whole new attitude, being nicer, listening to people, and just being an all around genuine good person. But god continues to fuck me over in ever witch way he possibly can. Firs last summer my parents get divorced that sucked, then my mom moves out, then she gets a boy friend then my dad gets a girlfriend, then my mom tells me my dads best friend told her my dad has been with marghrita for 2 years, now im going to stop and explain my moms boyfriend my first bad encounter with him was on the way home from the cape may zoo, my moms phone rang and it was a guy jerry got really uncomftorable and was like grabbing her phone being a complete jerk to her yelling at her like she was a child, then we pull off at a rest stop and she goes in, well the incompident jerkoff that he is gets out and grabs her and pushes her against the car and says give me your phone then she walks away inside where i follow ready to rip his fucking head off, so i walk in and see him with her slammed against the wall wrestling the phone out of her hand i almost lost it but i dident i kept my mouth shut. then shit unfolded with my neighbor finding out and telling my mom somthing off of what i told her daughter basically somthing more exaderated and what have you, well my mom bugged the fuck out on me because what she had heard was somthing completly different. now dont get me wrong my neighbor is like a mom to me nothing against her just at this point i got agravated and rightfully so in my opinion. ok ok ok so back to where i left off my mom goes to aruba..... and jerry shows up wich leads to HIM ASKING MY MOM TO MARRY HIM, what really hurts is she said yes and dident ask me about anything she told me when she got back. so i really dont want them to be married because i dont trust jerry at all. my dad is with marghrita who so far hasent done anything wrong and has been extremely nice, wich so has jerry but he lost his fucking chance, and quite frankly i think its all a gimic. so with all of this going on i just dont see why god cant give me some sort of a break in life but i guess thats how it is. and on top of this i have to worry about my dad constantly he has an irregular heart beat wich was cured and he was ok but it skiped out of beat again his blood work got messed up and everythign just seems to be going down the drain with that. all of the shit i just mentioned has happend wihtin the year. so id appericate it if.......... well i cant say it to you because none on hear really does it but people who look at me as somone who goes to school and isnt exatly smiling every second, or extremly exuberant to shut the fuck up. ive also began reading mein kampf its extremely good written by adolf hitler when he was imprissoned, "the sword of the weak shall become the plow of my armies,and the tears they cry in battle shall grow the bread wich will fead the great motherland of germany" is an awesome qoute by hitler he really was an extremely intelligent man.. the only person that i could really talk about any of this with and that ever gave me any sort of sypathy for anything was greg but hes up at rutgers for school, im also out of a job i think my boss gave up on me. i really want to say thank you to anyone who actually read this, im not looking for sypathy i just want people to realize what im going thru and when i seem tense or get worked up over simple things most people may put by them that im going thru alot none the less i have junior year coming up tommrow.