God is amazing.
As I sit to think about it properly in the quiet and the calm, I realise it's wrong to see today through a lens of awkwardness, because to do so would deny one truth that struck me so deeply today: that is the truth of what it means for God to give far more than you could ever imagine to ask for or receive.
Today's devotional brought me a verse from Isaiah that described how all we humans are but grass and flowers set to fall and wither, and yet God's word would stand forever. And it made me realise how magnificent He is, that His glory far surpasses anything that we can achieve, and all that we attain will eventually give way to His majesty on high. And that is how we shall reflect His glory: by having our time, and then fading away, and letting another take the limelight, all the while powered by the same source - the love and graciousness of our Father God who gives and gives so endlessly.
God has given me so much, even during the times when I felt ready to give up. How else could I persist if God hadn't given me the willpower and energy and perseverance to keep giving the best I could? How else could I not give up when I felt my best wasn't enough? Even at the last paper God made it so, so clear that He would provide everything I needed and beyond: the 45 minutes I had left over during EC313 was a miracle I could never have imagined, and it was enough for me to correct what I needed to correct. Everything I have today is His, and has been given by Him, and I only have gratitude to offer in response. Great gratitude and great praise.
My biggest regret is not having thought of all of this much earlier. I guess I needed the time and space. But better late than never, I suppose.
Today's devotional brought me a verse from Isaiah that described how all we humans are but grass and flowers set to fall and wither, and yet God's word would stand forever. And it made me realise how magnificent He is, that His glory far surpasses anything that we can achieve, and all that we attain will eventually give way to His majesty on high. And that is how we shall reflect His glory: by having our time, and then fading away, and letting another take the limelight, all the while powered by the same source - the love and graciousness of our Father God who gives and gives so endlessly.
God has given me so much, even during the times when I felt ready to give up. How else could I persist if God hadn't given me the willpower and energy and perseverance to keep giving the best I could? How else could I not give up when I felt my best wasn't enough? Even at the last paper God made it so, so clear that He would provide everything I needed and beyond: the 45 minutes I had left over during EC313 was a miracle I could never have imagined, and it was enough for me to correct what I needed to correct. Everything I have today is His, and has been given by Him, and I only have gratitude to offer in response. Great gratitude and great praise.
My biggest regret is not having thought of all of this much earlier. I guess I needed the time and space. But better late than never, I suppose.