I have come to realise that I am freaking weird.
I feel like I'm being super biased towards GP.
Between my two humanities in school, Econs and GP,
I need to start paying more attention to Econs I should get the essay I did after school vetted! Guh.
On a sidenote, my AQ is getting sucky. And it's weird because prior to learning the 7-step method and stuff I could get 4/8 and 5/8. Since then I've been getting 2 ._. Don't know why. Now I'm freaking insecure about AQ I think this is the second AQ I'm mailing for checking and I feel kind of bad because it feels like I'm spamming the teacher with work and she told me she's been kinda busy /: Sigh but my inadequacy bugs me so /: /: /: Should I mail? I feel terrible wanting to mail but I also feel terrible being lousy in AQ now. How did it do it last time, I wonder. Seriously.
And just to digress a little further, I really really miss writing personal recounts and narratives and the like in school. Even at home when I LJ I don't usually put the creative writing brain to work; I just pen down stuff as they happened with little descriptive methods or imagery etcetera. I was reading my "Logic And Fallacies" booklet this evening and it bugs me that as interesting as GP issues are sometimes and as novel as the idea of fallacies appear to be, it's so awful to just be looking out for flaws in people's arguments all the time, whether they can stand the test of the real world, whether they can survive the interrogation of logic and still emerge valid. I miss the times when I could just weave my own stories in another reality and not have to worry about whether the premises link logically to the conclusion or not because what the heck, the flow of events in a personal recount is at least six thousand worlds apart.
Most of all I miss describing things weirdly the way I like to. In GP you don't even talk about sunshine filtering through trees, much less describing sunshine to be like melted butter dripping down the tips of leaves and showering onto our skyward-facing cheeks. Or anything like that. The only fancy thing I've been using in my essay is the word "detractors". Yet the passages throw a bunch of fancy cold things to me during comprehensions that, as much as they are pretty, they're pretty unfeeling to me. Take Friday's comprehension: "mired in bigotry" was one cruel instance. At the end of it I think I should have just left the vocabulary section blank because this time it's not like filling it up made a difference. Freak. I mean sure we had comprehension back then but at least that wasn't it. There were cold words but there were also warm words; warm fuzzy happier words I could come up with and scatter all over the paper by myself to make a more comforting collage of images and emotions and dancing characters.
I am clearly rambling. Rambling is not a good argument technique. Graaaarh.
Between my two humanities in school, Econs and GP,
- I have only been to one Econs consultation session while I have been to at least three for GP
- I've never mailed any Econs essay done out of initiative for checking yet I have done that at least twice for GP
- I'm intending to do the aforementioned one more time for GP (my silly annoying AQ, urgh elaborate later)
I need to start paying more attention to Econs I should get the essay I did after school vetted! Guh.
On a sidenote, my AQ is getting sucky. And it's weird because prior to learning the 7-step method and stuff I could get 4/8 and 5/8. Since then I've been getting 2 ._. Don't know why. Now I'm freaking insecure about AQ I think this is the second AQ I'm mailing for checking and I feel kind of bad because it feels like I'm spamming the teacher with work and she told me she's been kinda busy /: Sigh but my inadequacy bugs me so /: /: /: Should I mail? I feel terrible wanting to mail but I also feel terrible being lousy in AQ now. How did it do it last time, I wonder. Seriously.
And just to digress a little further, I really really miss writing personal recounts and narratives and the like in school. Even at home when I LJ I don't usually put the creative writing brain to work; I just pen down stuff as they happened with little descriptive methods or imagery etcetera. I was reading my "Logic And Fallacies" booklet this evening and it bugs me that as interesting as GP issues are sometimes and as novel as the idea of fallacies appear to be, it's so awful to just be looking out for flaws in people's arguments all the time, whether they can stand the test of the real world, whether they can survive the interrogation of logic and still emerge valid. I miss the times when I could just weave my own stories in another reality and not have to worry about whether the premises link logically to the conclusion or not because what the heck, the flow of events in a personal recount is at least six thousand worlds apart.
Most of all I miss describing things weirdly the way I like to. In GP you don't even talk about sunshine filtering through trees, much less describing sunshine to be like melted butter dripping down the tips of leaves and showering onto our skyward-facing cheeks. Or anything like that. The only fancy thing I've been using in my essay is the word "detractors". Yet the passages throw a bunch of fancy cold things to me during comprehensions that, as much as they are pretty, they're pretty unfeeling to me. Take Friday's comprehension: "mired in bigotry" was one cruel instance. At the end of it I think I should have just left the vocabulary section blank because this time it's not like filling it up made a difference. Freak. I mean sure we had comprehension back then but at least that wasn't it. There were cold words but there were also warm words; warm fuzzy happier words I could come up with and scatter all over the paper by myself to make a more comforting collage of images and emotions and dancing characters.
I am clearly rambling. Rambling is not a good argument technique. Graaaarh.