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ok whatever, I give up on all the positivity shit, Iam a whiner baby so that's fine...so Iam gonna complain.
really though, it isnt that bad.
I was ready to walk out of work today. They said that we cant sit now.
I worked 10-9 without sitting except for my half hour lunch. My feet stung.
for the money i get paid, the nitpicking isnt worth it. I cant hide my emotions well so I looked pissed off today.
Iam one cocky son of a bitch at work when I dont like something, if I was the boss of myself id punch myself in the face, all i do is make jokes and turn into little miss I dont give a shit.
so i did a lot of laughing
but the good news is me and lore might open a shop in spring, we are looking at buildings.
so 23 and a business owner..boss!
tomorrow is Betsy's funeral. I am still shocked. I keep picturing her being alive, remembering all the times we laughed and stuff.
aside from that i still thought about Phil today..how you think you dont care anymore and something stupid takes you into a frenzy. how you can like someone so much you never really dated or shared anything too special with is beyond me. All I know is sometimes I think he is too cute for words, and iam over being mad...but i never want to talk to him because hes never going to change, then all of a sudden I feel like its ok to deeply love him regardless of his actions..and then i lovingly hate his guts and iam back to being fine.
Iam such a loser.
but iam going to have so much other shit to look forward to that I cant frown too much.
really though, it isnt that bad.
I was ready to walk out of work today. They said that we cant sit now.
I worked 10-9 without sitting except for my half hour lunch. My feet stung.
for the money i get paid, the nitpicking isnt worth it. I cant hide my emotions well so I looked pissed off today.
Iam one cocky son of a bitch at work when I dont like something, if I was the boss of myself id punch myself in the face, all i do is make jokes and turn into little miss I dont give a shit.
so i did a lot of laughing
but the good news is me and lore might open a shop in spring, we are looking at buildings.
so 23 and a business owner..boss!
tomorrow is Betsy's funeral. I am still shocked. I keep picturing her being alive, remembering all the times we laughed and stuff.
aside from that i still thought about Phil today..how you think you dont care anymore and something stupid takes you into a frenzy. how you can like someone so much you never really dated or shared anything too special with is beyond me. All I know is sometimes I think he is too cute for words, and iam over being mad...but i never want to talk to him because hes never going to change, then all of a sudden I feel like its ok to deeply love him regardless of his actions..and then i lovingly hate his guts and iam back to being fine.
Iam such a loser.
but iam going to have so much other shit to look forward to that I cant frown too much.