giving up my heart
In every fandom there are writers; writers that make you want to be a better writer, writers who inspire you because you know you are a better writer than they are, and then there are writers who make you want to never, ever write again because how in the world will you ever be that good?
In every fandom there are those writers for me. The last example is the most frightening, especially as I slog through this monstrosity on my HD that has just cannon-balled over 70K, but is still in need of so much work. It is so frustrating. But I still keep slogging through this thing because I must finish it. Not just for me, but for the boys too. They have been so patient and have put up with a lot of shit for me.
Tonight, as I look at this huge story that I have been working on since June, I wonder if weekend 3 and, more specifically, Stephen need to be completely re-written from scratch. What's another 20K in the bin when I have already scraped close to 30 in re-writes? I fear I will never finish due to my own need for perfection and clear continuity and cleverness.
And the need for this one writer to comment at the end of the story with their approval.
Because in the end isn't that all I'm really looking for?
In every fandom there are those writers for me. The last example is the most frightening, especially as I slog through this monstrosity on my HD that has just cannon-balled over 70K, but is still in need of so much work. It is so frustrating. But I still keep slogging through this thing because I must finish it. Not just for me, but for the boys too. They have been so patient and have put up with a lot of shit for me.
Tonight, as I look at this huge story that I have been working on since June, I wonder if weekend 3 and, more specifically, Stephen need to be completely re-written from scratch. What's another 20K in the bin when I have already scraped close to 30 in re-writes? I fear I will never finish due to my own need for perfection and clear continuity and cleverness.
And the need for this one writer to comment at the end of the story with their approval.
Because in the end isn't that all I'm really looking for?