we came together...
Beauty is when you still have Hope in love when your Love is Dead
-i got this from courtney's livejournal..just think...
there were hard times. people saying shit they shouldnt. little fights that only made us stronger. the good times, all the laughs we shared, the feelings. i couldnt have asked for more. i never will. throughout it all, we stood by eachother and made it through..and we would have made it to the end. i remember the first time we were ont hef one. he wouldnt talk and all i got out of him was a little giggle. i never got to look him in the eyes and tell him how much he means to me..and i regret it. gods taken everything. the only person i ever called true family, my Grandma Rose, toook her away in sixth grade. now hes taken away the only person i ever saw myself with. the one person i wanted to grow old with, have a family, and love eachother till the end of time, took him away. who the fuck is he going to take away next? i cant fuckin take any more losses in my life. enoughs enough. i just want to tell him i love him..one last time. i want to hold him in my arms..just for tonight. i dont see any meaning in my life anymore..
courtney wrote the most beautiful entry for ashton..and i want you all to read it..maybe you'll know how i felt about him..just a little bit..
"lisa and ashton have been together since February 5th, this year. I didn't know him well, and we started talking and he seemed cool but we ended up hating each other since I got pissed at him for almost breaking up with Lisa. But Ashton had a link to him. I enjoyed talking to him, and only told him a secret I never told anyone. Now that secret, and his love for Lisa, is all he has sworn into his heart as he rests in the darkness.
Ashton passed away....
Its strange... Didn't know him or like him well and as I type this I'm crying...
Guess I'm crying for Lisa, since she wont cry - shes so strong and beautiful - and the only good thing is that now he can still take care of his sister Cally.
And now I just checked lisa's message she sent me and she said "I never got to tell him I loved him"
Jesus Christ! Why would you do this God! To lisa and Ashton! they never had a fucking chance!
Rest In Piece Ashton.... I can only imagine you and lisa holding each other when its her time. She'll always love you Ashton, and to say I'm sorry for being a bitch to you, I'll look after Lisa. I always will."
courtney..thank you so much. that meant more than you'll ever know. i wanna thank my friends for being there for me..i dont think id be here if it werent for you guys.
-i got this from courtney's livejournal..just think...
there were hard times. people saying shit they shouldnt. little fights that only made us stronger. the good times, all the laughs we shared, the feelings. i couldnt have asked for more. i never will. throughout it all, we stood by eachother and made it through..and we would have made it to the end. i remember the first time we were ont hef one. he wouldnt talk and all i got out of him was a little giggle. i never got to look him in the eyes and tell him how much he means to me..and i regret it. gods taken everything. the only person i ever called true family, my Grandma Rose, toook her away in sixth grade. now hes taken away the only person i ever saw myself with. the one person i wanted to grow old with, have a family, and love eachother till the end of time, took him away. who the fuck is he going to take away next? i cant fuckin take any more losses in my life. enoughs enough. i just want to tell him i love him..one last time. i want to hold him in my arms..just for tonight. i dont see any meaning in my life anymore..
courtney wrote the most beautiful entry for ashton..and i want you all to read it..maybe you'll know how i felt about him..just a little bit..
"lisa and ashton have been together since February 5th, this year. I didn't know him well, and we started talking and he seemed cool but we ended up hating each other since I got pissed at him for almost breaking up with Lisa. But Ashton had a link to him. I enjoyed talking to him, and only told him a secret I never told anyone. Now that secret, and his love for Lisa, is all he has sworn into his heart as he rests in the darkness.
Ashton passed away....
Its strange... Didn't know him or like him well and as I type this I'm crying...
Guess I'm crying for Lisa, since she wont cry - shes so strong and beautiful - and the only good thing is that now he can still take care of his sister Cally.
And now I just checked lisa's message she sent me and she said "I never got to tell him I loved him"
Jesus Christ! Why would you do this God! To lisa and Ashton! they never had a fucking chance!
Rest In Piece Ashton.... I can only imagine you and lisa holding each other when its her time. She'll always love you Ashton, and to say I'm sorry for being a bitch to you, I'll look after Lisa. I always will."
courtney..thank you so much. that meant more than you'll ever know. i wanna thank my friends for being there for me..i dont think id be here if it werent for you guys.