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okay, so i'm feeling a little bit more in tune with the "real world" now. though i'm still not very happy about it. everything here is about how i left it, and that seems strikingly unfitting. for how monumentally different and sudden and meaningful my last four days were, it's as if the life that i left should be changed so that it would fit better with the changed me. but the same christmas cookies were on the counter, the same green tea that i left in the fridge, the same christmas and chinese leftovers. my room had been cleaned, and we got a new phone, and that was the extent of differences. so now i'm left a little culturally shocked, regretful, introverted and anti-social. i'd like to think that i'm capable of overriding my emotions by reason and will, but i always have some difficulty in coping with transitions like this. so i don't really feel like doing anything besides maybe sleeping or moping or reading. or maybe some partying :) i think i need to get out and away from my mind for awhile. except my dad insists that we be at his house tonight. except i'm not getting into that right now.