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You ever want something to break you, I'm the person to talk to. I seem to be really good at breaking myself.
Ahhh I didn't want this to get serious...but look! I've gone and done it again.
I'm so rediculously stupid. It's actually beyond comparison, to any other. I feel like beating myself over the head with a very blunt object. I really need to get over this. I need to get rid of this, I need a man to feel justified in life. I need to do something in my life. I will do something with my life. I just don't know what yet. God I miss talking to Phil, he always cheered me up. The other day I watched his romeo and juliet remake. It made me laugh so much. He told me, when seabass broke up with me, to watch it because it would make me feel better. I must have watched it 5 times. There's just certain things I will never forget. I know Phil is one of those people I will never forget. He always knew how to make me laugh and he knew when to be serious. However much of an idiot he may seem to be, he's a good guy. I say this now because Hero of the Day By Metallica just came on, he sent me this song during our conversation about Metallica S&M. I honestly wish I could see him again, mostly to burned his leather pants...yeah that would be nice.
I'm trying to figure out the truth, of what I'm thinking, and really, I have no idea. I might consume my day with...writing. Sounds good. But for now it's ciao.
Ahhh I didn't want this to get serious...but look! I've gone and done it again.
I'm so rediculously stupid. It's actually beyond comparison, to any other. I feel like beating myself over the head with a very blunt object. I really need to get over this. I need to get rid of this, I need a man to feel justified in life. I need to do something in my life. I will do something with my life. I just don't know what yet. God I miss talking to Phil, he always cheered me up. The other day I watched his romeo and juliet remake. It made me laugh so much. He told me, when seabass broke up with me, to watch it because it would make me feel better. I must have watched it 5 times. There's just certain things I will never forget. I know Phil is one of those people I will never forget. He always knew how to make me laugh and he knew when to be serious. However much of an idiot he may seem to be, he's a good guy. I say this now because Hero of the Day By Metallica just came on, he sent me this song during our conversation about Metallica S&M. I honestly wish I could see him again, mostly to burned his leather pants...yeah that would be nice.
I'm trying to figure out the truth, of what I'm thinking, and really, I have no idea. I might consume my day with...writing. Sounds good. But for now it's ciao.