HAPPY 16TH BIRTH DAY TO TIM!!!

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Tristan took off to Cali today and JONAH left too:( I mean... it's one thing for her to be gone but JONAH too!!! Grrr!!! But Tristan got her cell phone yesterday! Pretty tight! Today is a gay day! I don't like it at all! I feel like shit and I been feeling guilty about something else! Booooo!!! haha Last night it was kinda funny. Me and Nate talked till 3:30am then he said that we should get sleep.. so true! I haven't got my full sleep since... a week or so ago! First it was me and Nate talking on the phone till 5 then Faze moved into my room so me, him, and Frank stayed up LATE and then me and Stef stayed up and hung out and then me and Nate and Haley were on the phone till Haley had to go so me and Nate just talked! haha I NEED SLEEP!!! So last night me and Nate were talking and he said something soooo super sweet:) He was like "If you don't wanna kiss me it's cool cuz I don't wanna make you do anything you don't want to do... I would hate myself if I did" Isn't that sweet? I was so touched! Then I was talking to Isaiah online and he said something so sweet! But I'm not gonna tell ya about that! WOW! Isaiah is seriously like... one of the awesomeest people I know! He's almost PERFECT. I love that guy! So... it's hard for me to be friends with Nate now... I think it's cuz we kissed! And now... sometimes I just wanna hang out with him... and be friends not... w/e we are other times. Cuz... I don't know!!! Grrrrrrrrrr! I have this feeling this one is gonna hurt:( I don't even wanna get into it! I'm just a kid and I know nothing about the things he wants to do with his chicks and to be totally honest I don't wanna do that kinda shit! I wanna be a good girl for who ever I'm with next. I don't wanna mess around with my best friend at this time. But it's kinda 2 sided. We have so much fun when we are just being DORKS cuz that's what I'm best at. I'm not good at the whole girl friend stuff! I'm too goofy:) hehe I'm bored tho... so I'm out and I'm gonna be bored around the house or take a nap cuz I NEED IT!
~*Onix*~