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Today was okay. I felt alright when I woke up (at least after I have a good night's sleep, I feel great in the morning). I was still angry though, so I tried to avoid mom and sarah as much as possible. Then after they left (without me), I bitched at Dad about everything. He's like "yeah, sounds familiar.. Same things happen to me." Yeah, I guess we're in the same boat.
I felt pretty neutral at school. Gym was hilarious though, because we had to do CPR on the dummies. A few of the people in my group found the dummies really creepy XD. History = lame. Lunch and C block, I went on the computer for a bit (just checking email and whatnot). I read something that kind of upset me, so I felt sad. I just went in the darkroom, listened to music (and sang really loud :P), and worked on other work. Guitar was okay... actually, less than okay, but its alright. English.. I actually look forward to English. I actually learn stuff that's useful in real life in English class.
I came home, and my aim was to be productive and stay home all night, but I felt so.. blah, I wanted to hang out with someone. So me and Braeden went to the mall and bummed around. I'm so proud of myself, and I took the bus there and back. We talked about "serious" things, silly things (we came up with a new word somehow.. "blap" XD), and admired all the emo girls :P. I saw Mike (my manager from Calendar Club). I was so happy to see him XD, I kinda wondered what happened to him. We talked for a bit, he asked for my msn, and he told us how he just came back from having 5 drinks at Moxies (or something like that). He also commented on how we never had our staff party (which is a shame..). Yeah, then we went our separate ways. We had food at the "Food Hall", and Braeden gave me a Mozza Burger. I felt so guilty.. I always feel guilty when people are nice to me. Yeah, now I'm home. It was a nice walk home, the moon was out again and the sky was clear ^^
Anyway, I feel really awake right now (I don't feel like sleeping at all). I have lots of thinking to do now. But its okay, its good to be sure of what you want. I'm hungry :O
And... I want to apologize for the way I've been acting. I've been feeling like such a basketcase for awhile -_-;;. I'm sorry.
I felt pretty neutral at school. Gym was hilarious though, because we had to do CPR on the dummies. A few of the people in my group found the dummies really creepy XD. History = lame. Lunch and C block, I went on the computer for a bit (just checking email and whatnot). I read something that kind of upset me, so I felt sad. I just went in the darkroom, listened to music (and sang really loud :P), and worked on other work. Guitar was okay... actually, less than okay, but its alright. English.. I actually look forward to English. I actually learn stuff that's useful in real life in English class.
I came home, and my aim was to be productive and stay home all night, but I felt so.. blah, I wanted to hang out with someone. So me and Braeden went to the mall and bummed around. I'm so proud of myself, and I took the bus there and back. We talked about "serious" things, silly things (we came up with a new word somehow.. "blap" XD), and admired all the emo girls :P. I saw Mike (my manager from Calendar Club). I was so happy to see him XD, I kinda wondered what happened to him. We talked for a bit, he asked for my msn, and he told us how he just came back from having 5 drinks at Moxies (or something like that). He also commented on how we never had our staff party (which is a shame..). Yeah, then we went our separate ways. We had food at the "Food Hall", and Braeden gave me a Mozza Burger. I felt so guilty.. I always feel guilty when people are nice to me. Yeah, now I'm home. It was a nice walk home, the moon was out again and the sky was clear ^^
Anyway, I feel really awake right now (I don't feel like sleeping at all). I have lots of thinking to do now. But its okay, its good to be sure of what you want. I'm hungry :O
And... I want to apologize for the way I've been acting. I've been feeling like such a basketcase for awhile -_-;;. I'm sorry.