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[es_nj_jb]

yup, yup, yup i fucked my life up big. ill never denie that. and trust me, it runs through my brain alomst 24 7. i feel like just giving up on life. if theres nothing special in my life, why suffer? who ever is in charge of that, please do it soon. i wish ang beg that i can take it all back, restart but its basically too late. so all those ppl i

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[es_nj_jb]

your right. everything u said. true, all of it. i did love her, drugs got the best of me though and thats the reason why everything happened, trust me i think about what i did every fucking day. i tell myself everyday that she was perfect and why the hell i did what i did i would kill myself for, but that would be stupid.. i really am sry for what i did to her. im afraid if i talk to her though ill brake down. she was the best thing that ever happened to me at that time, i dont know why i did what i did, it was down right wrong. i know it was. she doesnt have to forgive me, but i will talk to her cause it would be the mature thing to do. but im just afraid to. i fucked up big. and in every way possiblei wish i can take it all back, cause to see where im at now, would never of happened if i cheated on her with that whore. and trust me. i wanna kill that bitch that fucked me. this is no excuse but i was really fucked up that night. im just glad that i dont fuck around with drugs nemore. i was doing really bad. but neway, yes, i will talk to her but i dont have her number and she is never online. so i dunno how i can. but i would like to thank u for letting me see how this really is, im glad that u brought it back into picture. it needed to be. so thankyou

[es_nj_jb]

being fucked up is no excuse to cheat on someone as great as her. her number is 856 404 7466. who cares if u brake down when u talk to her. she deserves to hear how bad u feel and u crying or w.e and dont try and blame it on the girl that fucked u it takes two people to fuck. and ur dik was getting inserted into her crotch. honestly. u dont do drugs or anything? thats good. shes online sometimes when ur on. and shes always wanted to IM you and tell you how much u hurt her and how much she wanted to run u over and kill you. she doesnt feel like that anymore cuz she found someone awesome, but she still thinks about what u did and because of you shes scared to death that someone will do that to her. her life has gone down hill ever since u cheated on her. and its just starting to go up. but u were the first one to break her heart and then all her friends did it and screwed her over. but know that u really did hurt her. seh wasnt the best thing that happened to you at the time she was the best thing that happened to you ever. but if u do call her u will have to do it sometime this weekend. cuz her mom takes her cell during the week. but thats her number. u should have had that tho. and um. call her friday nite sometime. after eleven. or sat. nite sometime after...eleven too. or sunday anytime. shes up all the time. so it really dont matter she has a hockey game shes going to with her brother friday nite and sat. shes chillin with her bf and then having her brothers birthday party and sunday shes juss chillin at home i think. and dont think that cuz she has a bf she doesnt think of u and what u did. but yeah. she doesnt love you any more u just hurt her and she wants to say what she wants to say and here u apologize and all that. so yeah. and ur welcome for bringing it all back into picture. but i didnt do it for you i did it for danielle.