errrrrr!
Well let's see on Wednesday night Jay and I
were going to take some movies back to family
video in north muskegon and we were almost there
and we hit 2 deer out of 4. One in the head and one
in the ass. They broke one of my headlights and
dented my hood, but other then that no other damage.
Me and Jay are fine, but I think that I might have
hit my head on the steering wheel.
Yesturday was Cameron's batism and he looked so cute
in his white tux. We had fun.
Then today on my way to class I found out something
very interesting from Jay. That Dirk tried to blame
everything that him and Nick did in August on just
me and Nick. Which I had no idea that he tried to do
that. I'm glad that Heather and Jay talked to the
detective and straightened everything out. I just
can't believe that he would do something like that
after everything that I have done for him. And all
the times that I have saved his ass over the past
year and a half. I guess that he didn't care about
me as much as I thought that he did. and this
just proves it. I guess that I can say that me parents
were right about Dirk. and I defended him to my parents,
my friends, my family, and my best friend(adam). But I
guess that I should have listened to them in the first
place, but I thought that I knew Dirk better then that.
I thought that he would never ever do anything to ever
hurt me, but I guess I was wrong. He really hurt me this
time and I don't know if I can forgive him now.
Other then that everything is going ok i guess. I am
just a little down right now. especally after finding
that out from Jay this morning. I just can't take the
stress of anything any more. The simplest things have
been setting me off lately. and I can't do it anymore.
I honestly think that I need to get away from everything
I need to take a weekend and just get away to somewhere
quiet.
And then on Friday Jay went to the doctor right, well we
found out that she has a heart murmer and that there might
be something wrong with one of her blood vessels on her
right side of her heart. And they think that she has early
signs of preclampsia. That's what Heather had that made her
go nuts and we though that we were going to lose her. I can't
lose Jay, she is the one who has kept me sane throughout all
of this. And my cousin Tina who is like my sister is thinking
about getting a devorice from Greg.Because he is being such
an ass hole and she can't take his shit anymore. So not only
do I have to worry about me I have to worry about Jay and Tina
and Greg Jr. and Mikayla too. Oh and I almost forgot my mom is
having surgery tomorrow.So I have to worry about her too. God
I swear my life is going all to hell. Ever since Auguat last
year my life has seriously gone all to hell and I CAN'T TAKE
IT ANYMORE!!!! I JUST CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE!!! I just don't know
what to do.
Well I guess that is all for now. I just hope that I don't lose
my mind before this is all over.
*Later*
were going to take some movies back to family
video in north muskegon and we were almost there
and we hit 2 deer out of 4. One in the head and one
in the ass. They broke one of my headlights and
dented my hood, but other then that no other damage.
Me and Jay are fine, but I think that I might have
hit my head on the steering wheel.
Yesturday was Cameron's batism and he looked so cute
in his white tux. We had fun.
Then today on my way to class I found out something
very interesting from Jay. That Dirk tried to blame
everything that him and Nick did in August on just
me and Nick. Which I had no idea that he tried to do
that. I'm glad that Heather and Jay talked to the
detective and straightened everything out. I just
can't believe that he would do something like that
after everything that I have done for him. And all
the times that I have saved his ass over the past
year and a half. I guess that he didn't care about
me as much as I thought that he did. and this
just proves it. I guess that I can say that me parents
were right about Dirk. and I defended him to my parents,
my friends, my family, and my best friend(adam). But I
guess that I should have listened to them in the first
place, but I thought that I knew Dirk better then that.
I thought that he would never ever do anything to ever
hurt me, but I guess I was wrong. He really hurt me this
time and I don't know if I can forgive him now.
Other then that everything is going ok i guess. I am
just a little down right now. especally after finding
that out from Jay this morning. I just can't take the
stress of anything any more. The simplest things have
been setting me off lately. and I can't do it anymore.
I honestly think that I need to get away from everything
I need to take a weekend and just get away to somewhere
quiet.
And then on Friday Jay went to the doctor right, well we
found out that she has a heart murmer and that there might
be something wrong with one of her blood vessels on her
right side of her heart. And they think that she has early
signs of preclampsia. That's what Heather had that made her
go nuts and we though that we were going to lose her. I can't
lose Jay, she is the one who has kept me sane throughout all
of this. And my cousin Tina who is like my sister is thinking
about getting a devorice from Greg.Because he is being such
an ass hole and she can't take his shit anymore. So not only
do I have to worry about me I have to worry about Jay and Tina
and Greg Jr. and Mikayla too. Oh and I almost forgot my mom is
having surgery tomorrow.So I have to worry about her too. God
I swear my life is going all to hell. Ever since Auguat last
year my life has seriously gone all to hell and I CAN'T TAKE
IT ANYMORE!!!! I JUST CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE!!! I just don't know
what to do.
Well I guess that is all for now. I just hope that I don't lose
my mind before this is all over.
*Later*