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I haven't spoken to Anna in at least a week, and just today as I was walking around UF, I saw a license plate from UM, and I decided to give her a call. Her mother picked up, said she would tell Anna I called...
I am in this state of numbness about all of this...I had known for awhile Anna wasn't 'right', and everytime we spoke she seemed better and better...much like when others who have taken their own lives, they get better before the end...
I am unsure of what to even feel; remorse for the loss of a close friend, content in knowing she is no longer in pain, or even both. All I know is that for the last several hours, I have barely spoken and only cried...
Anna...This is the point I say "I should have" or "What if", but you know that is not who I am or what I do. "Move forever forward" you told me once...And I am moving forward now. If only...Ah, almost did it there, didn't I?
Wherever you are, whatever you are, may you find the peace you have long searched for and have seldom had. I'll miss our talks...but you already know that.
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I am in this state of numbness about all of this...I had known for awhile Anna wasn't 'right', and everytime we spoke she seemed better and better...much like when others who have taken their own lives, they get better before the end...
I am unsure of what to even feel; remorse for the loss of a close friend, content in knowing she is no longer in pain, or even both. All I know is that for the last several hours, I have barely spoken and only cried...
Anna...This is the point I say "I should have" or "What if", but you know that is not who I am or what I do. "Move forever forward" you told me once...And I am moving forward now. If only...Ah, almost did it there, didn't I?
Wherever you are, whatever you are, may you find the peace you have long searched for and have seldom had. I'll miss our talks...but you already know that.
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