Eccentric
I know I worry too much.
STARTING
NOW
I'M
GOING
TO
STOP
DOING
THAT.
Also, I say I need I want I have to I gotta I'm gonna I should...... WAY too much.. there's never anything that says I will be doing this at this time and then I will be doing that and then I'm going to finish up this....instead there's just a bunch of things left for the future that will never happen with the rate I'm going. Argh. Like the last blog entry, the one I left open...if I psychologist read that they would see the pattern of things left for a unpredictable time in the future. Things that I really want to do...but never seem to do...what the hell is stopping me??
I don't know if you've noticed, but esp. today I feel a little bit like I'm losing it....this is the time I might as well move my bum because I'm worrying all the time....as in get things accomplished...keep worrying but use it for your benefit, to positively reinforce you.
And right now I know I feel like crap...but tomorrow there will be sunshine and I'll start feeling a lot better.
I want God in my life but I think I"m going a few steps wayyy too much further than where I'm at this present moment. Wearing HIjab doesn't mean I have to be completely religious to the point where I don't even know myself anymore. I made this point clear in the beginning. But also wearing Hijab means you are being responsible and keeping religion as your lifestyle. And slowly but surely you will get to the place you want, for now...be yourself...and stop worrying so much. Just be happy. only worry when it comes to doing your homework.
Like people have told me, you don't need to have everything figured out right now...
so there...I don't need to have everything figured out right now...okay?? even though I may know people who do seem to have things figured out for themselves and do seem to plan their lives and know how many kids they are going to have in the future....I don't need to know all of that...I just have to go one step at a time....and not freak out that I'm 21 and I'm not at the point in my life that other people are at. I just have to give myself more credit because I KNOW my potential...I KNOW I can do better....I have to strive to be better everyday...which is usually what I've known to do...but lately been in a slump...no biggy...it happens often but I can get back up....
STARTING
NOW
I'M
GOING
TO
STOP
DOING
THAT.
Also, I say I need I want I have to I gotta I'm gonna I should...... WAY too much.. there's never anything that says I will be doing this at this time and then I will be doing that and then I'm going to finish up this....instead there's just a bunch of things left for the future that will never happen with the rate I'm going. Argh. Like the last blog entry, the one I left open...if I psychologist read that they would see the pattern of things left for a unpredictable time in the future. Things that I really want to do...but never seem to do...what the hell is stopping me??
I don't know if you've noticed, but esp. today I feel a little bit like I'm losing it....this is the time I might as well move my bum because I'm worrying all the time....as in get things accomplished...keep worrying but use it for your benefit, to positively reinforce you.
And right now I know I feel like crap...but tomorrow there will be sunshine and I'll start feeling a lot better.
I want God in my life but I think I"m going a few steps wayyy too much further than where I'm at this present moment. Wearing HIjab doesn't mean I have to be completely religious to the point where I don't even know myself anymore. I made this point clear in the beginning. But also wearing Hijab means you are being responsible and keeping religion as your lifestyle. And slowly but surely you will get to the place you want, for now...be yourself...and stop worrying so much. Just be happy. only worry when it comes to doing your homework.
Like people have told me, you don't need to have everything figured out right now...
so there...I don't need to have everything figured out right now...okay?? even though I may know people who do seem to have things figured out for themselves and do seem to plan their lives and know how many kids they are going to have in the future....I don't need to know all of that...I just have to go one step at a time....and not freak out that I'm 21 and I'm not at the point in my life that other people are at. I just have to give myself more credit because I KNOW my potential...I KNOW I can do better....I have to strive to be better everyday...which is usually what I've known to do...but lately been in a slump...no biggy...it happens often but I can get back up....