I try to be real, but I have to learn how to be nice
If you want to survive in the world you have to learn how to be fake and just be nice to those you really don't feel like being nice to.
I try to be real, but I have to learn how to be nice
My whole ideology on how I should be in this world is to be as real as I can be.
To be honest and express my feelings truthfully (well except for white lies of course, those are necessary to be nice)
Don't let people think you are faking at life, creating a myspace for yourself where you just want to win a popularity contest and making friends who really aren't your friends.
No, basically my ideology is be as real as I can be so people know exactly who I am and what I represent or want to represent.
Problem with this is, some people will not understand me, OR they will annoy me and I cannot show them that I am annoyed with them because that is not a civilized and mature way of behaving.
So, my conclusion ? To not hold grudges, to rant about annoyances in my diary only (or best friend...whatev) and then just forget about them, leave them in the diary and do not bring those grudges out in public because if I do- I'll be disappointed in myself, and I'll represent a rude, bitter person that I don't want to represent.
For instance, I'm going to have to face a group member at 11 AM (if she shows up after not giving me the work she said she would by e-mail) and pretend like I don't hate her for being lazy and purposely ignoring my texts/phone calls all the way back to Thursday. Because on Thursday she was supposed to hand me her stuff. Now it's Sunday night and she hasn't handed me anything. I called texted on Saturday and today and said to her "please just let me know if you can hand it in cuz otherwise you haven't put any input into this project. So then as usual I didn't get a respond back for hours and thought she wasn't going to respond, and then I sent her a voice mail where I sounded peeved off and I told her that i don't trust her, so I'm hoping that at least she'll show up tomorrow at eleven, cuz I don't even think she'll do that. So after the voice mail I noticed that someone had texted me and when I opened the text it was her and she said "I'm sorry I don't have any internet or anything right now cuz I'm at my boyfriend's house but I will tonight so I'll send it to you tonight". Anyway, then I told her "oh ok. thank you. as long as you send it by tonight that would be perfect. ignore your voicemail...and I'll see you tomorrow at 11 at the library" Which she replied to "ok see you then..."
So yeaaaaaaa she said she'd give me her information by e-mail tonight. I haven't received anything, now it's like 3 am and I'm ranting on here before I finish up the project but anyway...I don't like people like this. She might have listened to my voice mail and then was hurt and was like "ok well I'm totally not giving her my information now" But anyway, I think she didn't ever even do the work....cuz she's lazy.
I hate group projects.
Anyhow most of what I said in the beginning can be used for anything, it's a generalized statement of how I feel I should learn to only express my feelings when it is necessary but mostly just ignore and be mature and be strong. However expressing my feelings in lj is different, I can express myself without having to worry.
People don't always want to see the real side of you....they'll think you are crazy.
It is sad, but it is true. We are all crazy, perhaps a little neurotic, or a little bit just nutso when we think about how we are going to take our project and rip it apart in front of our group members and tell them to screw themselves, and give up on our grade.....ahem...anyway
I'm obviously not going to do that.
I'm going to bring the poster board at 11, have them paste on all the material I printed, and maybe leave, take a nap, before our poster board presentation at 2 pm, and then present at 2 pm with the group with a smile on my face.
Then I'm going to leave as fast as I can, but before I do only say bye to the group members I enjoyed working with (only 2 of the 4 actually put some work into this)
I was in a group of 5 people and I think my group was too large in number, I wish I got away from them when I first noticed that nothing was getting accomplished.
And then I'll start working/studying on other things. Can't wait till this school day is over (at 4 pm).
I try to be real, but I have to learn how to be nice
My whole ideology on how I should be in this world is to be as real as I can be.
To be honest and express my feelings truthfully (well except for white lies of course, those are necessary to be nice)
Don't let people think you are faking at life, creating a myspace for yourself where you just want to win a popularity contest and making friends who really aren't your friends.
No, basically my ideology is be as real as I can be so people know exactly who I am and what I represent or want to represent.
Problem with this is, some people will not understand me, OR they will annoy me and I cannot show them that I am annoyed with them because that is not a civilized and mature way of behaving.
So, my conclusion ? To not hold grudges, to rant about annoyances in my diary only (or best friend...whatev) and then just forget about them, leave them in the diary and do not bring those grudges out in public because if I do- I'll be disappointed in myself, and I'll represent a rude, bitter person that I don't want to represent.
For instance, I'm going to have to face a group member at 11 AM (if she shows up after not giving me the work she said she would by e-mail) and pretend like I don't hate her for being lazy and purposely ignoring my texts/phone calls all the way back to Thursday. Because on Thursday she was supposed to hand me her stuff. Now it's Sunday night and she hasn't handed me anything. I called texted on Saturday and today and said to her "please just let me know if you can hand it in cuz otherwise you haven't put any input into this project. So then as usual I didn't get a respond back for hours and thought she wasn't going to respond, and then I sent her a voice mail where I sounded peeved off and I told her that i don't trust her, so I'm hoping that at least she'll show up tomorrow at eleven, cuz I don't even think she'll do that. So after the voice mail I noticed that someone had texted me and when I opened the text it was her and she said "I'm sorry I don't have any internet or anything right now cuz I'm at my boyfriend's house but I will tonight so I'll send it to you tonight". Anyway, then I told her "oh ok. thank you. as long as you send it by tonight that would be perfect. ignore your voicemail...and I'll see you tomorrow at 11 at the library" Which she replied to "ok see you then..."
So yeaaaaaaa she said she'd give me her information by e-mail tonight. I haven't received anything, now it's like 3 am and I'm ranting on here before I finish up the project but anyway...I don't like people like this. She might have listened to my voice mail and then was hurt and was like "ok well I'm totally not giving her my information now" But anyway, I think she didn't ever even do the work....cuz she's lazy.
I hate group projects.
Anyhow most of what I said in the beginning can be used for anything, it's a generalized statement of how I feel I should learn to only express my feelings when it is necessary but mostly just ignore and be mature and be strong. However expressing my feelings in lj is different, I can express myself without having to worry.
People don't always want to see the real side of you....they'll think you are crazy.
It is sad, but it is true. We are all crazy, perhaps a little neurotic, or a little bit just nutso when we think about how we are going to take our project and rip it apart in front of our group members and tell them to screw themselves, and give up on our grade.....ahem...anyway
I'm obviously not going to do that.
I'm going to bring the poster board at 11, have them paste on all the material I printed, and maybe leave, take a nap, before our poster board presentation at 2 pm, and then present at 2 pm with the group with a smile on my face.
Then I'm going to leave as fast as I can, but before I do only say bye to the group members I enjoyed working with (only 2 of the 4 actually put some work into this)
I was in a group of 5 people and I think my group was too large in number, I wish I got away from them when I first noticed that nothing was getting accomplished.
And then I'll start working/studying on other things. Can't wait till this school day is over (at 4 pm).