who can say if ive been changed for the better

[eruditebiggles]

i do believe i have been changed for the better.

holy
shit.

it is all over tomorrow. for the most part, i mean. i haven't GRADUATED, but it is the last time i go to D.A. in the morning for school. and it isn't even for classes. it's for parties and returning books and shit. what the fuck?
it's done??

and i'm not going to say time has flown because i will admit, i have felt these four years every day. i decided for me it isnt because the time passes so fast its that we're so glued to the present. so its like the past doesnt even feel like it has happened except for all of these memories i'll now tote around for the rest of my life. it's crazy.

i used to say i was a static character
falsitries and lies!

i am SO different than i was freshman year.
holy cow, so much better. SO much better.

D.A., I love you, I will miss you, I'm not wanting to stay behind your fences, but good God, am I ever grateful for my time with you.

the end came up too fast for me to even write about.

and to think four years ago i was writing this about lavilla
which seems so current and real when i think about it
time is so hard to understand
i wish i understood so much more than i do.

its over...
really over.