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i'm frustrated with myself because i have no idea what's wrong. Little tid bits of worries and notions that i keep missing i guess. I'm glorified and petrified with ideas that come out of no where. I don't feel safe at times and others i feel comfortable at dangerous areas. I have awful fears and doubts if the people that i feel comfortable are unsure with my actions.
I hate how I can't read a person but i feel strongly for him. I have freedom and I enjoy all of it. I love not feeling obligated and claustrophobic. But I'm worried that I make him feel worse. But his touch is still warm and safe which I love.
I have no idea what's going to ever happen. I feel that my frustration is becoming noticeable. I feel that this will be one of my best and worst years of high school. I feel repetition is all my life is headed too. And when that becomes bored it'll phase into jealousy and I won't be able to think clearly. It's as is being inside I'm a captive but outside I'm a martyr. All in all summer feels as if it's just started and I don't want it to ever end.
Happy 17th Birthday Manda!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate how I can't read a person but i feel strongly for him. I have freedom and I enjoy all of it. I love not feeling obligated and claustrophobic. But I'm worried that I make him feel worse. But his touch is still warm and safe which I love.
I have no idea what's going to ever happen. I feel that my frustration is becoming noticeable. I feel that this will be one of my best and worst years of high school. I feel repetition is all my life is headed too. And when that becomes bored it'll phase into jealousy and I won't be able to think clearly. It's as is being inside I'm a captive but outside I'm a martyr. All in all summer feels as if it's just started and I don't want it to ever end.
Happy 17th Birthday Manda!!!!!!!!!!!