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Wow...I have posted in forever and a day...umm...mostly bad things...Almost got into a fight with someone. Haha. Eric Rogers...that guy's a fucking idiot. Would have been damn fun tho. I don't mind dying/killing. It's jail time that really sucks. And I'd rather go to jail for killing someone than just for a small little fight. We both knew the rules so neither one of us wanted to throw the first punch so we both backed off calling the other a pussy. You know how it goes right? Well...I think I would have liked to die that way. Unfortunetly, I doubt he would have killed me, even if he had the chance. He's not a warrior. He's...an idiot. But anyways...
I'm going to give up on her tho...she'll never love me. I don't want to. But you know how in some romance movies, there's that guy that's the best friend. And he loves her, but she doesn't. And then she falls for someone else and they're a great couple and everything? And then the best friend is just there alone? I think I'm that best friend. Unless something else happens between now and the end of the year...then I'll have only one other chance maybe...4 years or more down the road after college or some shit and that's only if I ever see her again. I'm just going to start talking to her less...I guess I'll ask someone else out or something and just kinda drift away from her. Because it just doesn't seem like she'll care really. Damn. I wish I was going out of state for college. Now I regret it kinda. I'll work my ass off this coming year, start applying some where cool and then just take off.
I really have nothing left here. You fuckers better keep in touch! And I'll try to stay in touch as well...
haha...I'll miss her...but I guess I'll have to move on...
I just want to leave right now...and I could use a smoke...
Concurrent Enrollement sucks so much nuts right now...I think I'm going to end up failing my english class...and unless I get my algebra book back, or at least the homework I think I'll fail that class too...
Sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel really is just a train headed your way...
I guess I better start finding a date for prom soon...I kinda want to go because of you my friends, but then I don't want to cause I know I won't take the girl I want to go with...I should just forget her...I need someone to help me forget her tho...I want someone that will take care of me. To hold me and protect me. Someone I'd do anything for. I want someone that will return the love I give...I'm happy because you my friends are happy, but it still kinda hurts that I feel like I have no purpose. I want to give my life to someone or something...I just don't know what...Haha...and I tell Nanc not to worry huh? Hahhahahhahahahhahaha...ahhh....
I met a few new friends...all three are freshman. But they're cool. Not bad looking girls either. I think if I do go to prom, I might take someone kinda random. Someone I know, but not like I have to know them since forever. I would take one of them, but I think they'd be kinda weirded out if only one of them went. If I talk to them again, then I'll actually put more thought into it, and maybe ask 2 more people without dates to take another one of them. But that's if I ever see or talk to them again really. And that's if I decide to go in the first place.
Hahaha. I think I'm going crazy. I've started to see things out of the corner of my eyes lots of the time. I've become a little bit more suicidal among other crap.
I feel like there's all this poison in my body and I want to throw up and get it out. But I think I would make it worse if I gagged myself. I kinda want it to just come up on its own. But I think it's an emotional sickness.
LJ now has an autosave...You know how much I could have used this so many years ago? but...either way...
well that's about it...i'ma go...peace out.
I'm going to give up on her tho...she'll never love me. I don't want to. But you know how in some romance movies, there's that guy that's the best friend. And he loves her, but she doesn't. And then she falls for someone else and they're a great couple and everything? And then the best friend is just there alone? I think I'm that best friend. Unless something else happens between now and the end of the year...then I'll have only one other chance maybe...4 years or more down the road after college or some shit and that's only if I ever see her again. I'm just going to start talking to her less...I guess I'll ask someone else out or something and just kinda drift away from her. Because it just doesn't seem like she'll care really. Damn. I wish I was going out of state for college. Now I regret it kinda. I'll work my ass off this coming year, start applying some where cool and then just take off.
I really have nothing left here. You fuckers better keep in touch! And I'll try to stay in touch as well...
haha...I'll miss her...but I guess I'll have to move on...
I just want to leave right now...and I could use a smoke...
Concurrent Enrollement sucks so much nuts right now...I think I'm going to end up failing my english class...and unless I get my algebra book back, or at least the homework I think I'll fail that class too...
Sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel really is just a train headed your way...
I guess I better start finding a date for prom soon...I kinda want to go because of you my friends, but then I don't want to cause I know I won't take the girl I want to go with...I should just forget her...I need someone to help me forget her tho...I want someone that will take care of me. To hold me and protect me. Someone I'd do anything for. I want someone that will return the love I give...I'm happy because you my friends are happy, but it still kinda hurts that I feel like I have no purpose. I want to give my life to someone or something...I just don't know what...Haha...and I tell Nanc not to worry huh? Hahhahahhahahahhahaha...ahhh....
I met a few new friends...all three are freshman. But they're cool. Not bad looking girls either. I think if I do go to prom, I might take someone kinda random. Someone I know, but not like I have to know them since forever. I would take one of them, but I think they'd be kinda weirded out if only one of them went. If I talk to them again, then I'll actually put more thought into it, and maybe ask 2 more people without dates to take another one of them. But that's if I ever see or talk to them again really. And that's if I decide to go in the first place.
Hahaha. I think I'm going crazy. I've started to see things out of the corner of my eyes lots of the time. I've become a little bit more suicidal among other crap.
I feel like there's all this poison in my body and I want to throw up and get it out. But I think I would make it worse if I gagged myself. I kinda want it to just come up on its own. But I think it's an emotional sickness.
LJ now has an autosave...You know how much I could have used this so many years ago? but...either way...
well that's about it...i'ma go...peace out.