Sideways
So tonight, I broke down and decided to watch some movies that I had in my stock that I forgot I had. Well, in this regards, I decided that the only way to really enjoy a night of movie watching is by ordering up some pizza, cold drinks, and to kick back. I rocked the delivery special at Domino's and got myself a six-pack of Pepsi and settled in.
For the first movie, I decided on a comedy. One that went for the cheap humor, but was good. Team America. Gotta love it.
Though really what has inspired me was the latter movie. So, about a year or so ago, a friend of mine, Sherry, saw this movie and thought it was good. What really got her to liking the movie was that one of the characters reminded her of herself. As the movie progressed she found that she saw a lot of what she has been through, and what she is like in this character. Since her and I are quite a bit alike, she recommended it to me. So, on a whim, I picked it up. The movie is called Sideways.
It stars Paul Giamatti and Thomas Haden Church. Basic plot line is, Thomas Haden Church's character is getting married and Paul's character is his best friend, and they are doing a bachelor party type vacation and going out to enjoy the world "one last time." Well, things don't go nearly as planned. They travel around some of the vineyards in Cali, drinking wine, and getting into all kinds of shenanigans.
Well, in regards to what really hits close to home, is the fact that Paul Giamatti's character, Miles, is two years out of a divorce. He's having some issues with being single after having such a painful break up and such. Still struggling with those self-esteem issues that occur after break-ups and what not. Well, as the week goes on, Miles finds himself in a position where a woman is interested in him.
He doesn't know how to handle himself, and just overall sabotages himself every which way to Sunday. What intrigues me about this character is how closely related to that I can be sometimes. Well, most of the time actually. Everytime he looks at a situation, he finds the negative out of it. When a waiter is nice to him, and Church's character is all "She is digging you." Miles comes back with the "Of course she is, she is getting tips." Niceness because of money. The only reason someone will be nice to me is if I am throwing money around. This is how things start off. Thing was, the waitress was the woman the Miles evenually finds himself involved with.
After havin watched the movie again I find that one of the biggest moments in the entire movie is the scene on the porch, the first night they are really "together." Maya (the waitress and woman that Miles is interested in) asks him why he likes "Pinot" so much. In response to this, Miles goes into a little monologue that really reveals his character. Explains his life, his emotions, just everything about him. (Taken frm imdb)
"Uh, I don't know, I don't know. Um, it's a hard grape to grow, as you know. Right? It's uh, it's thin-skinned, temperamental, ripens early. It's, you know, it's not a survivor like Cabernet, which can just grow anywhere and uh, thrive even when it's neglected. No, Pinot needs constant care and attention. You know? And in fact it can only grow in these really specific, little, tucked away corners of the world. And, and only the most patient and nurturing of growers can do it, really. Only somebody who really takes the time to understand Pinot's potential can then coax it into its fullest expression. Then, I mean, oh its flavors, they're just the most haunting and brilliant and thrilling and subtle and... ancient on the planet."
Afterwards, Maya says a few things, and leans up, setting her hand on Miles'. After a moment of silence that passes between them, he coughs and asks where the bathroom is. At this point, I lean back, smack my forehead and damn him for ruining the moment.
That scene describes so many things. I think that his monologue describes how he looks at love. Now, whether he sees himself as the grape, or the grower. That is the one question that I keep asking myself. Running through the different parts of the movie and try to decide. Does he feel that he needs the nuturing, and that he can only grow under specific conditions to be the best that he can be. Or is he the one who seeks perfection by being "patient and nuturing." I see aspects of both throughout the movie.
In some cases we find him searching out those niches where he can thrive. He fits in well with the wine crew. He knows what he is talking about when it comes to wine and can get along with those people. In Friendships, he appears to be the grape. Yet, when it comes to relationships, we find he is more the grower. He bides his time expecting that time to grow the sweetest of emotions. That nothing comes fast, and that it takes time to make something that will become great.
The more I watch the movie, the more things I find that support many things, and yet that scene on the porch is moving. The way he describes the Pinot, you know he is talking about himself, and love and relationships and the world. And then he tears it all down.
The ending is another moving moment. Honestly, I am going to give it away because it requires mention. After things progress, Maya gets pissed at Miles and she stops alking to him. He still tries to make contact with her, trying to show her that he is not like Jack, Thomas Haden Church's character. The final scene ends with a voicemail left my Mata.
To this regard, we find out that after consideration, Maya is still interested, and that she has forgiven Miles. The movie ends with Miles knocking on Maya's door. This is crucial because, it leaves it open to see, what will happen next. Will he ruin another moment? Has he learned that you can't always see the negative side of things and carry on? What happens between him and Maya?
It aggravates me. The first time I saw it, I was totally pissed. I wanted more. I wanted to know what happened to them. But then I realize, that makes it good. Perhaps they do live happily ever after. Perhaps not. But either way, Miles has learned something about himself. Now, if things don't work out, hopefully he will realize that he can't go back to that dark place he was after the divorce. That he still has a chance, regardless of what his social status is.
I see myself sometimes doing the same thing. Realizing that I don't know where I stand. But then there are times when I realize that things are not nearly so bad. That I can be happy, and carry on without being negative. There have been a few recent things that occured that made me reaize this. Had things occured a couple of months ago, perhaps I'd be staying where i am. It's funny how things happen.
Onto a slightly different subject, yet somewhat related. I was in an off-mood today. I felt like I was a step behind where i should be, and just felt my enter was messed up. I realized today that in another couple of weeks, I won't be seeing any of these people again. I've met some awesome people here. the people I work with, plus some others around campus. There are amazing people. I realize that whay I've been through here, I will never forgot. I hope some of these people keep in contact, but I know that won't happen. We all move on, and change. There are rarely those who actually stay in contact. I find myself doing the same thing as well with people I used to know. Tis a sad state of affairs, but it happens. We grow, we move on, and such is life.
I really wish I could stay and see if a few things "spark" so to speak. There are a few things that I would do, if I knew i was staying. There is a girl I would probably ask if she'd like to go do dinner, movie, and then figure out what to do ater that. But to do that and then move, would not be prudent. There are some things that I will never get to see, but...it happens. I enjoyed my time while I was here, but I think I've found what I actually enjoy. I relaxed, I vacationed for awhile, and have decided that I am done. It is time to move on, and make another chapter in my life. I will never forget the people I've met here. I have truly enjoyed my time...
I'll miss it.
For the first movie, I decided on a comedy. One that went for the cheap humor, but was good. Team America. Gotta love it.
Though really what has inspired me was the latter movie. So, about a year or so ago, a friend of mine, Sherry, saw this movie and thought it was good. What really got her to liking the movie was that one of the characters reminded her of herself. As the movie progressed she found that she saw a lot of what she has been through, and what she is like in this character. Since her and I are quite a bit alike, she recommended it to me. So, on a whim, I picked it up. The movie is called Sideways.
It stars Paul Giamatti and Thomas Haden Church. Basic plot line is, Thomas Haden Church's character is getting married and Paul's character is his best friend, and they are doing a bachelor party type vacation and going out to enjoy the world "one last time." Well, things don't go nearly as planned. They travel around some of the vineyards in Cali, drinking wine, and getting into all kinds of shenanigans.
Well, in regards to what really hits close to home, is the fact that Paul Giamatti's character, Miles, is two years out of a divorce. He's having some issues with being single after having such a painful break up and such. Still struggling with those self-esteem issues that occur after break-ups and what not. Well, as the week goes on, Miles finds himself in a position where a woman is interested in him.
He doesn't know how to handle himself, and just overall sabotages himself every which way to Sunday. What intrigues me about this character is how closely related to that I can be sometimes. Well, most of the time actually. Everytime he looks at a situation, he finds the negative out of it. When a waiter is nice to him, and Church's character is all "She is digging you." Miles comes back with the "Of course she is, she is getting tips." Niceness because of money. The only reason someone will be nice to me is if I am throwing money around. This is how things start off. Thing was, the waitress was the woman the Miles evenually finds himself involved with.
After havin watched the movie again I find that one of the biggest moments in the entire movie is the scene on the porch, the first night they are really "together." Maya (the waitress and woman that Miles is interested in) asks him why he likes "Pinot" so much. In response to this, Miles goes into a little monologue that really reveals his character. Explains his life, his emotions, just everything about him. (Taken frm imdb)
"Uh, I don't know, I don't know. Um, it's a hard grape to grow, as you know. Right? It's uh, it's thin-skinned, temperamental, ripens early. It's, you know, it's not a survivor like Cabernet, which can just grow anywhere and uh, thrive even when it's neglected. No, Pinot needs constant care and attention. You know? And in fact it can only grow in these really specific, little, tucked away corners of the world. And, and only the most patient and nurturing of growers can do it, really. Only somebody who really takes the time to understand Pinot's potential can then coax it into its fullest expression. Then, I mean, oh its flavors, they're just the most haunting and brilliant and thrilling and subtle and... ancient on the planet."
Afterwards, Maya says a few things, and leans up, setting her hand on Miles'. After a moment of silence that passes between them, he coughs and asks where the bathroom is. At this point, I lean back, smack my forehead and damn him for ruining the moment.
That scene describes so many things. I think that his monologue describes how he looks at love. Now, whether he sees himself as the grape, or the grower. That is the one question that I keep asking myself. Running through the different parts of the movie and try to decide. Does he feel that he needs the nuturing, and that he can only grow under specific conditions to be the best that he can be. Or is he the one who seeks perfection by being "patient and nuturing." I see aspects of both throughout the movie.
In some cases we find him searching out those niches where he can thrive. He fits in well with the wine crew. He knows what he is talking about when it comes to wine and can get along with those people. In Friendships, he appears to be the grape. Yet, when it comes to relationships, we find he is more the grower. He bides his time expecting that time to grow the sweetest of emotions. That nothing comes fast, and that it takes time to make something that will become great.
The more I watch the movie, the more things I find that support many things, and yet that scene on the porch is moving. The way he describes the Pinot, you know he is talking about himself, and love and relationships and the world. And then he tears it all down.
The ending is another moving moment. Honestly, I am going to give it away because it requires mention. After things progress, Maya gets pissed at Miles and she stops alking to him. He still tries to make contact with her, trying to show her that he is not like Jack, Thomas Haden Church's character. The final scene ends with a voicemail left my Mata.
To this regard, we find out that after consideration, Maya is still interested, and that she has forgiven Miles. The movie ends with Miles knocking on Maya's door. This is crucial because, it leaves it open to see, what will happen next. Will he ruin another moment? Has he learned that you can't always see the negative side of things and carry on? What happens between him and Maya?
It aggravates me. The first time I saw it, I was totally pissed. I wanted more. I wanted to know what happened to them. But then I realize, that makes it good. Perhaps they do live happily ever after. Perhaps not. But either way, Miles has learned something about himself. Now, if things don't work out, hopefully he will realize that he can't go back to that dark place he was after the divorce. That he still has a chance, regardless of what his social status is.
I see myself sometimes doing the same thing. Realizing that I don't know where I stand. But then there are times when I realize that things are not nearly so bad. That I can be happy, and carry on without being negative. There have been a few recent things that occured that made me reaize this. Had things occured a couple of months ago, perhaps I'd be staying where i am. It's funny how things happen.
Onto a slightly different subject, yet somewhat related. I was in an off-mood today. I felt like I was a step behind where i should be, and just felt my enter was messed up. I realized today that in another couple of weeks, I won't be seeing any of these people again. I've met some awesome people here. the people I work with, plus some others around campus. There are amazing people. I realize that whay I've been through here, I will never forgot. I hope some of these people keep in contact, but I know that won't happen. We all move on, and change. There are rarely those who actually stay in contact. I find myself doing the same thing as well with people I used to know. Tis a sad state of affairs, but it happens. We grow, we move on, and such is life.
I really wish I could stay and see if a few things "spark" so to speak. There are a few things that I would do, if I knew i was staying. There is a girl I would probably ask if she'd like to go do dinner, movie, and then figure out what to do ater that. But to do that and then move, would not be prudent. There are some things that I will never get to see, but...it happens. I enjoyed my time while I was here, but I think I've found what I actually enjoy. I relaxed, I vacationed for awhile, and have decided that I am done. It is time to move on, and make another chapter in my life. I will never forget the people I've met here. I have truly enjoyed my time...
I'll miss it.