"The seasons have changed and so have we"
I have to teach my brain to think in a new way, to not think of where I was at this point last year, but where I WILL be at this point next year and what steps I need to take to make this a reality.
I think I'll take my yoga teacher's advice.......do yoga until the answers come to you. Cuz really, overanalyzing and driving myself mad isn't really helping me to come to any decisions or take any action.
I guess overall I just want to be more mindful, to make more of a difference, to think of new and interesting things rather than just getting through the day, just churning out documents, just searching for some semblance of fascination in anything that I'm doing.
I want meaning and depth and to be excited about things again. I want more knowledge and to keep learning and growing and changing, rather than feeling like I'm stuck in this stagnant place with this face I don't recognize anymore.
But a few first steps have been made:
......started updating my resume, just in case.
......Set up an Etsy shop.--but going to get things together and work on it a bit more before I give out the info. Request away/remind me of any crafts in particular that I have given you over the years that you love and would go back to get in the case of a zombie outbreak.
.......Working on getting all of those things done that are actually really important, but easy to put off. I have made a giant categorized list. Examples of things on my procrastining list: get line of credit with BMO instead, to pay off student line of credit, since i get a good employee rate, bring dog for follow-up to the vet, get a family doctor etc.........i'm glad I broke it into sections, cuz otherwise the list is MASSIVE.
........Try to resolve some drama that has been bothering me. A few emails have gone out........some has been resolved, some not. I feel better about it anyways, which is really all that matters i guess.
........talked to the tenant board about how to go about keeping apartment.......wrote a letter to assign the lease. Hopefully will be all smooth sailing.
It's a start........
I think I'll take my yoga teacher's advice.......do yoga until the answers come to you. Cuz really, overanalyzing and driving myself mad isn't really helping me to come to any decisions or take any action.
I guess overall I just want to be more mindful, to make more of a difference, to think of new and interesting things rather than just getting through the day, just churning out documents, just searching for some semblance of fascination in anything that I'm doing.
I want meaning and depth and to be excited about things again. I want more knowledge and to keep learning and growing and changing, rather than feeling like I'm stuck in this stagnant place with this face I don't recognize anymore.
But a few first steps have been made:
......started updating my resume, just in case.
......Set up an Etsy shop.--but going to get things together and work on it a bit more before I give out the info. Request away/remind me of any crafts in particular that I have given you over the years that you love and would go back to get in the case of a zombie outbreak.
.......Working on getting all of those things done that are actually really important, but easy to put off. I have made a giant categorized list. Examples of things on my procrastining list: get line of credit with BMO instead, to pay off student line of credit, since i get a good employee rate, bring dog for follow-up to the vet, get a family doctor etc.........i'm glad I broke it into sections, cuz otherwise the list is MASSIVE.
........Try to resolve some drama that has been bothering me. A few emails have gone out........some has been resolved, some not. I feel better about it anyways, which is really all that matters i guess.
........talked to the tenant board about how to go about keeping apartment.......wrote a letter to assign the lease. Hopefully will be all smooth sailing.
It's a start........