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I'm glad today is my Friday... I would rather lay in bed and give myself more thoughts to fill my head, then to listen to everyone else's problems...while I'm playing with really hot milk.
Least I can see now why things are the way they are... Of course, it pisses me off, but all in all... I try to give any human the benefit of the doubt.
I've been honest
Sincere
And on call since the last time John and I had issues... and you know what? He isn't grateful. He isn't grateful for the past 3 years, I took care of his sorry ass and worked really hard.
He never was proud of me for anything... and never expressed that I captured any interest in him... when I based my whole life around him... and made sure things were better for myself and him...
And now that I'm growing up and growing out, it scares the crap out of him. I make new friends everyday, want to be out there and supportive to all I can be.
While he sits and worries and plays his video games?
Good call...
If only he would of come out and see that everything is okay here.
If only he would of seen the way I look when I talked to him or about him...
The small things are what brightens the picture...
I deserve something better than that. And I'm going to look for it someday. Right now, I'm going to repair what has been broken...
I only react this way because it's all bullshit... and I'm tired of being the adult.
This is why when you date older people, you check it out before making the plunge.
'Least I learned something from this... and should of seen the signs in the beginning, but I was only 19...Younger, stupid and in an illusion.
Now, I'm 22. Still young, not stupid and definitely in reality.
Take.that.with.you.
Time for work. I haven't slept yet... my mind was racing... and I've made my decision.
Riddle me this, Batmen, How can you not trust your gf, but trust them as your friend?
If you can answer me that, I'll give you a mother fcking giant cookie.
Time to drive... and listen to the Kings of Leon. Loud.
Least I can see now why things are the way they are... Of course, it pisses me off, but all in all... I try to give any human the benefit of the doubt.
I've been honest
Sincere
And on call since the last time John and I had issues... and you know what? He isn't grateful. He isn't grateful for the past 3 years, I took care of his sorry ass and worked really hard.
He never was proud of me for anything... and never expressed that I captured any interest in him... when I based my whole life around him... and made sure things were better for myself and him...
And now that I'm growing up and growing out, it scares the crap out of him. I make new friends everyday, want to be out there and supportive to all I can be.
While he sits and worries and plays his video games?
Good call...
If only he would of come out and see that everything is okay here.
If only he would of seen the way I look when I talked to him or about him...
The small things are what brightens the picture...
I deserve something better than that. And I'm going to look for it someday. Right now, I'm going to repair what has been broken...
I only react this way because it's all bullshit... and I'm tired of being the adult.
This is why when you date older people, you check it out before making the plunge.
'Least I learned something from this... and should of seen the signs in the beginning, but I was only 19...Younger, stupid and in an illusion.
Now, I'm 22. Still young, not stupid and definitely in reality.
Take.that.with.you.
Time for work. I haven't slept yet... my mind was racing... and I've made my decision.
Riddle me this, Batmen, How can you not trust your gf, but trust them as your friend?
If you can answer me that, I'll give you a mother fcking giant cookie.
Time to drive... and listen to the Kings of Leon. Loud.